Monday, October 30, 2006

Oh hey.Havent updated my blog for a long long time.Had no time nor the resources to do so.
Currently, in Mike's room in Club Med. Bored outta my wits coz I dont click with my roomie..Bosan la her. Annoying too. I thought Im messy. In her case, times 3. Haha.. All in all, I have to admit that my first training was so much better. Prolly coz I had Ice, Ika, Wee2, Venny, S'nia & Zara. I was not alone. And this time, Im all alone. No one wanted to come back. The sole reason as to why Im back to CM is Dean. ahaha. He's been a doll.. Really..
Time flies. Another 25 more days to go. Whats after 25 days? Reality. Where it bites. And Im not looking forward to it. College.Assessments. Presentations. Results. Ergh. Bosan.
Anyways, if what I have to go thru now, I had to go thru in the previous training, I wouldnt come back. Dean or no Dean. Serious. Tak tahan la kerja sorang in the stupid vege room. Im a specialized cuisine student and they campak me in vege room? C'mon.. The other 2 trainees yg msk kitchen, they get to change departments when it is a well known fact that there's no way that they're going to specialize in cuisine coz there's no cuisine specialization anymore.Sedey la.. If Kak Teh ada lagi, can tahan. Now that she's gone, the work that we used to do together, I have to do alone and thats not cool. Stress. I skipped my lunch most of the time. I had to. Coz I stop working, it wouldnt be done. I dont know. I feel like shit la. Nathan and Moka kept saying that Im doing a good job. But if I am, why do I feel so shitty? Nathan and Moka are the Asst Exec Chef. I feel like Im disappointing people. I wanna be independent but sometimes I just dont know how. Sometimes, I wish people could see my efforts. I want them to appreciate the things that I do. But its almost impossible here. People here.. Hmmm. Lets just say you could never satisfy them.
The good part. Dean of course. I get to spend time with him. To see him on a daily basis. Its all good. Surreal actually. Haha..But he's pretty busy lately. With everything. He's got no off for 2 weeks already. Kesian him. He's tired. I can tell. He looks tired.
Raya in Club Med sgt sedey. Had to work on the first day of raya. At 6 am some more. Bercinta saya nak bgn at 530 am.haha.. When everyone else sibuk beraya, I was in the vege room. Potong sayur. When everyone else makan ketupat or rendang or lemang, I makan nasi lemak in vege room

When sume orang pakai baju raya baru, saya pakai baju kitchen yg bapak besar.Mmg sedey la. Haih..
Anyways, I gotta run...Will update later or when I get back to Subang. toodles.