Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Twilight.

Im just in the mood to be writing.

I watched TWILIGHT 4 times in the cinema and countless times online. Obsessive much? Indeed.

I dont know. Maybe because I loved the book? Maybe. When I found out that they were releasing the movie, I was excited. But I kept telling myself that I shouldnt get too excited. Most movie adaptations are crap. Example : PS, I LOVE YOU, Da Vinci Code & Harry Potter.

But I was soo into the book that it was only right to a huge fan of Stephenie Meyer to be watching the movie.

And I did. On the first day of the release. Right after work. And again, 2 days later with my dear sister. And again, 2 days after with my staff. And again, the next day with Dean Love.

I read Twilight countless times before the movie was even made. So I kinda know the book by heart. I even imagined how Edward Cullen would look like. Even Bella. Alice. Rosalie. Emmet. Jasper. Carlisle. James. Victoria.

When I first saw Bella in the movie, I thought she was purrrrteeey. Not the kind I had in my imagination. But she did the character just!






Then, Edward Cullen came into the picture. At first, I was disappointed. He looked NOTHING like the Edward Cullen I had imagined him to be. But the longer I watched, the more I fancy him. He's soft spoken and so gorgeous. With undescribable voice. Love the voice.




Jacob Black was a disappointment thru out the movie. It was so obvious that he didnt fit. I heard, Stephenie Meyer wanted Steven Strait from The Covenant to play Jacob but the director disagree. So, hello whatever-your-name-is who plays Jacob Black.


The original Jacob

Steven Strait.


I knew Carlisle was supposed to be a blond but I never imagined him to be one in my, of course imagination. So, he looked sorta odd in the movie. Being blond and very pale. One of those fake pale skins. But he was alright. He played the character well. Just like how it was supposed to be.




Damn Eric is Asian! It was not mentioned in the book. There was no Lauren in the movie. Too bad.


Rosalie. In the book, she was described and I quote : "tall and statuesque. She had a beautiful figure, the kind you saw on the cover of the sports illustrated swimsuit issue, the kind that made every girl around her take a hit on her self-esteem just by being in the same room. Her hair was golden, gently waving to the middle of her back."



And of course, Jasper and Alice.





The movie wasnt a total disappointment. Matter of fact, I sorta fancy the movie. The movie was in line with the book. They had to squash 500 pages story into a 2 hour movie. So, it wasnt bad at all.



Is it worth it?

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA people!

I didnt get to celebrate. So I sorta envy those who did. *cursin fridays*.

Well, today wasnt entirely a great day. It started off quite slow. Slow to not great.

My GM received this complaint email from a guest. The guest complained that he came in last weds in hoping to celebrate his gf's b'day. He spoke to my server that he wanted a Friday's Sundae (ice-cream) instead of the Choc Cake that we usually give out for b'days. Procedure is procedure. You cant change coz its free. Well, my server asked Shaun, my collegue if it could be switched. Shaun said no. That was that. The email came in and that dude CLAIMED that Shaun told him " Sorry sir, you're in my territory!" WTF! I mean, get real already. He is a validated manager. He would never say stuff like that to people. Let alone to a guest. Plus my server witnessed everything. Shaun didnt even go to the table. Its amazing how people can just lie. Now, Shaun is in deep trouble. He might just get a warning letter or terminated for something he didnt even do. Its just unfair. You see, this industry is cruel.

Some parts of me are telling me that THAT guest had something against Shaun. He even complained that he saw Shaun eating buffalo wings with his hands. He claimed that its not hygenic. Let me get this straight coz its so frustrating facing STUPID guests like this. If Shaun wants to eat his fucking wings with his fucking hands are his fucking business, dont you think?
He's not retarted to eat wings with fork and knife. Myself and Shaun would usually make fun of guests who eats wings or nachos with forks and knifes. Its just so funny. If we're lucky, we even get to see some of them make a fool out of themselves. Pisau and garpu terpelanting sana and sini ALERT! lol. OK, not the point. Point is, whichever way he wants to eat his food, is his problem. He's eating it. He's not touching your food. What is wrong with you? Mentally challenged are you? He could lose his job you know? What kind of a person are you?

Stuff like that are the exact kind of thing that we have to deal with everyday. Sometimes we get shouted at for things we didnt even do. Thats never fair. But when a guest in unhappy, they tend to want to talk to a manager. And we'll get it. Like there's no tomorrw. Like we're some kind of embecile or a moron.

It made me wonder if its all worth it. Studying so hard to get a good job. And getting shouted at for the things we didnt even do. Is it worth it? Is it?

Monday, December 08, 2008

After a month of not updating my blog, I realized that I dont know how to start updating.
At times, I even forget that I even own a blog. Im sorry, blog. I dont mean to abandon you.

Browsing thru my ancient previous posts was one of the things I enjoyed doing. Not recently tho, I havent had that much time in my hands.
No, dont judge me just because I enjoy reading what I wrote.
It just made me realized how different my life is now compared to ermm a couple of years ago.
How different I am now.
I'd never realized it without this blog.
So, I guess thats reason enough to keep this blog longer.
Yes, Ive considered deleting this blog.

Life is hard. Yes.

An old friend came to visit and we started talking about life.
She said that if one day her mom were to tell her that she'd found the guy that she should marry, someone that would make her happy, she'd accept.
Reason being, she said she's so gatal now.
I dont know what her defination of gatal and I dont think I wanna know.
She then said that life starts after marriage.
Its a saying I have to admit, Ive never heard before.

But I disagree anyways.
I told her that she would change her mind once she has steady job. I know she will.

Currently, I am quite confused.

I dont know what I want. I dont even know if Im happy.

I just dont know.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

its alright

I dont remember having a bestfren in my life. Maybe I just have a different defination of bestfriend. I dont know. Somehow, they dont qualify. Either that or I thought I didnt need a bestfriend.

But I couldnt be more right! Just when I found a person whom I can call a 'BESTIE', she went and turn her back on me.
She found someone better than me I guess.
She just replaced me.
Of all times she could have done this to me, she chose now.
When somethings arent right in my life, she complete my sadness by turning her back on me making everything's wrong in my life.
Its ok.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Open up.

I have got to be the most ungrateful brat ever. I always hav things to complain about.
I wonder if its wise to even type it out here. In this blog. Wonder unwanted people reading such personal thoughts of mine.
But hey, Im entitle to my own views and opinions.

There are a few songs that brings me back to the good old days.
Like by listening to 'Amber' by 311, automatically brings me to term 3 of college.
Islamic studies! I'd be holding on to Ice's Ipod and have 'Amber', 'Love Song' & 'Separuh Nafas' on repeat.
I was never one of those people who would sleep or skip classes.
Nope.
I'd try my very best to attend classes tho it was as boring as Islamic studies.
Dont get me wrong. I have nothing against Islamic Studies.
But I just didnt see the significance of studying that.
Main contributor was the lecturer himself.
He gave notes in powerpoint form and only lectured what was written in the notes.
I mean, I could just read that.
I slept in his classes. And I was at the front row.
Boring class.
How glad that THAT is over.

I havent seen my college girlfriends in AGES.
Zara left M'sia for UK. Persuing her degree in London.
Cant recall which uni tho.
Havent seen Akila for over a year.
I am not exaggerating when I say I dont have time.
Ice is someone I see sometimes.
It simply means I only see her when she pays me a visit in fridays.

Dear blog,

Thank you for being so understanding. No one would even bother listening to my craps except you.
Heaven knows, I have alot of craps to let go.
When no one is available to talk, you'd be the perfect company.
Like now.
There's no one that I can talk to.
Nobody would understand.
Problems at work, who'd understand?
Problems at home, no one should know.
Too embarassing to tell.
Problems with Dean, who'd listen?

I dont know how to open up. I dont even know where or how to start.
Scared people would judge how I interprete my problems.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

no title

Alot of people question why people blog? Why not?
Ive never really bothered wondering coz I assume people blog for the same reason I do.
A place where can I be 100% honest and no one would judge me.
A place where I know whatever's written here are kept secret and very private.
A place where Ive compiled 3 years of life.
The good. The bad. The happy times. The depressed moments.
All in one blog for me to browse and reminisce about days gone by.
Oh how great life was then.

Now, it 3.30 am. I am not asleep nor am I close to being sleepy.
I have to go to work at 8am.
I left Fridays today arnd 730pm after spending 11 hours working.
Had this little makan thing over at my uncle's.
Left his place around 9.30pm.
10 pm reached home.
That was how my day was.
Its pretty much the same you see.
I could easily force myself to sleep.
But doing so will only mean its the end of my day, as far as Im concerned.
Heaven knows, Ive got so much that I want to do.

Its amazing that most blogs that Ive read, including mine,
has more complains to make rather than appreciating life as it is.
No, it was never my intention to create a blog so that I can complain.
No no.
My blog is just a place where my thoughts could be heard.
Could be jot down in words rather than keeping them bottled up inside.
A reminder for years to come.
Just a string of thoughts that came to mind with nowhere else to express them but here.

Nowadays, my favourite word is regret.
And my favourite thing to do is thinking about days gone by.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Regret

After numerous attempts to update this blog, I am finally typing.

I havent got much to say actually.

Its rather odd that now I am finally online and ready to blog, I dont really have anything to say.
But honestly, I really want to let go.

Sometimes, I wonder if Im doing the right thing now. I have alot of questions. And no answers.

How do I be a good manager?
How do I manage my staff? or in Friday's terms team members.

Do I have to be a NICK SPIJI in order to be a great manager?
Btw, nick spiji is the senior GM and he's a wonderful manager.
The only person I look up to in this company I work in.
Feh.

I dont know.
Sometimes I wonder if I have to be a person I am not to get things done.

I started working at a very early age of 17. MPH.
My manager Mr Ong, was a great manager. He wasnt exactly intimidating.
He wasnt really scary too.
He was nice. He was one of those people you'd go to if you have problems.
One of those people you'd respect.
One of those people who'd still mingle with staff or team members, and still be well respected.
I know I did.

And so, now that Im bearing the same title he did, I wanted to be something like him.
Failing miserable, if I may add.
I cant be him.
I am not even 22.
The people I have to manage are older.

How do you be a friend and still be well respected?
I try hard.
I feel being who I am isnt enough, at least thats what they make me feel.

My biggest regret?
Started my working career far too early. The only regret.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Please change.

Im putting 'RUNNING AWAY' by Hoobastank on repeat.
I dont know why.

No amount of words can ever describe how screwed up my life really is.
Work's a bitch, home is too.
Why can't I just lead this life of mine in peace.
Its enough that I have to constantly please people at work.
Do I have to it at home too?
Do I?
When nobody bothers to please me instead.

I am turning 22 this year, yet Im being treated like a 12 years old kid.
I kid you not.
I work for more than 10 hours a day.
Is it really wrong for me to stay up real late so that I can catch up with friends my age in cyberspace?
I need to do what people my age would do.

Why do you always, always have to bug me?
Why cant you leave me at peace?
I just wanna be left alone.

For once, I'd like to go home and not worry for 'him' to nag.
I'd like to go home for once thinking 'he'd' be in a good mood and not screw everyone else.
For once I'd like to go home and see 'him' being normal.

Why cant I just have a normal and functioning family?
Its Ramadhan!

I wish I could be one of those people who'd say 'Yeay its ramadhan!'.
But Im not.
And I dread it.
Not because I hate fasting.
I love fasting.
I just hate the things I have to go thru / things I have to put up with during this beautiful month.

A fren once said ' Dont ever let anyone spoil your ramadhan.'
Its a sweet thing to say.
I appreciate it.
But Ive grown up dreading it.
Ive grown to not look forward to it coz I knw really well what I have to see/go thru/put up with.
All of it concerns 'him'.

An evil thought came to mind once.
Ok, more than once.
Ok ok. All the time.
Sometimes I wish him dead.
I feel sinful for having such bad thoughts about a person who, without, I will not exist.

But I am so angry.
I dont have to go thru this.
I shouldnt go thru any of this.
I should always be a happy person just like the mask I put on in front of people.
I should never dread ramadhan.
I should know how to respect and not fear.
Coz I dont know how to respect.
All I know is fear.
If there's someone I look up to, I'd fear that person.
Coz I cant differenciate between fear and respect.
I grew up fearing 'him'.
I dont respect.
I fear him.

One should never have thoughts like mine.

Ive never asked for big things.
Ive never wished big things.
I am aware I may never be able to go to Aussie or Paris or States.
Coz I am aware that I was not born to be that lucky.
And honestly speaking, Ive given up hoping I'd be lucky enough to travel the world.
But, I have not given up on 'him'.
I still hope somehow, someday, 'he'd' change.

Hope that 'hed' realize that us, his childrens have feelings.
And these feelings need to be taken care off once in a while.
Just like how we, your childrens try to take care of your feelings.
Just like how we avoid offending you.
But it seems to me, the harder we try, the more we fail.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Then

I havent gotten time to do much of anything nowadays.
Its just so sad.
When I was leading a good life, I thought it wasnt good enough and that it could be better.
Now that Im leading this life, I cant help but ponder back to the past and how great it was and how I should have been more thankful then.
But I guess its no use to be sorry now.

Almost everyone I know. Close or not, are complaining that working life arent what they expected it to be.
Indeed, I agree.

Back in college, in Oenology class with Mr Daniel Chong, he told us all to enjoy college life while we still can.
He's a lecturer now and said that if there's anything he could do to go back in time and be a student again, he'd do it.
I never understood.
I do now.

I wish nothing more than to just go back to college and study and be with friends or back in club med and just let my hair go.
I'd do anything now than working.

I got around to buying Hoobastank's first cd again.
The one that I lost.
Listened to RUNNING AWAY.
Automatically brought me back to form 5.
Why?
I was such a fan then!
Back when nobody knew who Hoobastank was!
Id listened to that whole album over and over without getting bored.
I shared interest with Alea and Yaya.
We'd make fun of Doug Robb.
We'd sing together in class.
I'd surf to Hooba's website on a daily basis without fail.
Even sent out an email to Dan Estrin!
And even got a reply! lol!

I was such a rock chick then! LOL!
Hooba, Incubus, Disturbed, HIM etc was my cuppa tea!
I listened to Distubed before going to sleep and waking up to Disturbed.
Wonder what happened to that girl now?

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Grr

I am pretty aware that Im not a good friend.
I feel so bad.
Zara's leaving for UK tonight and I cant send her off coz I'd be working.
Its bad enough that I couldnt attend her farewell party coz of work.
Im missing out alot of things.
Reuben's an RM too but he's got some time in his hands.
Bodoh sial.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Change

i started this blog i think 3 -4 years ago.
I was sorta obsessed in updating this little baby of mine.
Now, that I am too busy to even spend some quality time with my family,
I started to neglect this little baby.
But, to delete?
Impossible.

In this little baby of mine,
are 4 years worth of memories.
Memories that brought me to where I am now.

I may not be updating it too often now,
but whenever I feel the need to remind myself of who I am then,
I'll spend some time and reminisce.
Here.
In this blog.

I dont care if people say its stupid to blog.
I dont.
I dont even expect people to read.
Im writing down my thoughts.
And what you think,
does not matter.
At least not here.

I started this little baby of mine when I was in MPH.
Working and desperately wanted to study.
I was with Joshua who later on I found out was a fake.
Online dating.
I thought he was the love of my life.
Thank god that chapter is over.
I read back,
I realize how naive and stupid I was.

I was such an angry person then.
Who wrote poetries and so suicidal.
Where is that person now?!

This entry is obviously rubbish.
But I havent written in so long.
I just dont feel like myself anymore.

Working is not what I expected it to be.
Its tiring.

So many things has happened.

But one thing for sure,
I am a changed person.
And Im not sure if Im entirely happy about it.

I'll update more. Soon.
You can stay tuned or not.
Hey, whatever tickles your fancy.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

whine

Just my luck innit?
To be working with annoying people?
JUST MY LUCK!

I know I whine alot here in my blog,
thats because I have alot of things to complain about.
Its not fair.

How can I perform in my work if Im not happy working?
There, I said it!
Im not happy!

I dont see a future working here.
I might leave.
Might.

I'll update later.
Gotta work. Oh boy.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Regret

Now, nothing's right.
Nothing's ok.
Im not right.
Im not ok.

If I could scream, I would.
Just want to let all my regrets out.

I penat.
Tanak kerja.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

brief

Now is not the best time to update my abandoned blog for I am in Friday's.
But who cares?
I spend too much time here.

Currently, not happy working.
Feel like an outcast most of the time.
Want to die.
Developed a very very bad habit.
Had a few ciggies the past few days.
But not taking any anymore.
*dont tell Dean, he'd kill me *

The workload is fine.
Just not getting along with other collegues.
And thats not great.
Coz no communication.
And thats really bad.
Especially that big boss for US is comin in this weds.
Fuck no.

GTG.. work's calling. Will update more soonish, I hope.

Toodles.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

No more.

I am officially so sick of moody people.
I am.
All I did was please people.
Did the people ever tried to please me?
Im so sick of all these shits.

Its like when nak cakap, dia ckp.
Bila not in the mood, buat bodoh.
Who the fuck do you think you are?
Some kind of king or goddess that I should worship?
EAT THE FUCKING SHIT AND JUST FUCKING DIE!

The world woulda been a better place without people like you.

Grr. I think its just a waste of time talking to people who doesnt even give a shit.
Coz I cared alot.
I cared about this person.
That person just wanna not talk to me without any valid reason.
What can I actually do?

So yeah.
Eat shit and die.

I care. No more.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

30-04-08

I didnt sleep the whole night last night thanks to Awie, my bartender's iced coffee.
Double shot expresso baybee..
Wanna know a funny story?
Jeff said the secret into making a great iced coffee is to add a pinch of salt.
Apparently Awie didnt know that.
And Jeff wasnt arnd at that moment and I took the time to tell him coz he was afterall making MY iced coffee.
We chit chatted while he was making it.
Then when he was done, he asked me to take a sip.
Slowly I did and came to realize that it was SALTY.
I asked Awie ' Wie, aku ckp a pinch of salt, brp byk pinches ko letak?'
He replied, 'Ade la beberapa pinch. =)'
Cantik muka dia!
Haha.. I find it funny. Awie is a funny funny guy.

Anyways, due to Awie's coffee, I didnt get to sleep.
At least not until 7 am.
Woke up again at 1030 coz I had to get ready for work.
So with the little time I had slept, I went to work cranky and looked like a zombie
according to Mr Adrian Alphons, The Kitchen Manager. haha. Funny Lad.
I kept forgetting that it was eve of public holiday and most of the time, its busy.
It simply means, FUSSY PEOPLE ALERT!

Lunch wasnt so bad.
But after lunch?
A bunch of mak datins came.
Grr.
FUSSY LITTLE FUCKHEADS.
Sorry if I sound mean but its true,
Its a known fact that Fridays serves big portion foods.
Enough for 2 or maybe 3,
It depends.
There was 5 of them.
They ordered The Fisherman's Platter.
It came and one of the datin said
' You're being a little bit inconsiderate right? There are 5 of us and there's only 4 shrimp?'
What in the world?
Its supposed to be for 2 or 3 people. Not 5!
Plus we didnt just serve shrimps in the Platter.
There was fish and calamaris too.
Not to mention the huge portion of fries.
Fuck off.

Later on in the evening,
a bunch of Bhais came and drank till they lost count of how many glasses of beers they had.
They got a little drunk.
And they acted as tho they own the bloody bar top.
Talked as tho no one is in the restaurant.
Again, fuck off!

It was quite horrible knowing that it'll be busy during dinner but you have no sufficient manpower.
It sucks.
It means, I have to work like dogs.
It means I have to run food. Run drinks. Pre-buss table.
Anything that a server needs to do.
On top of that, manage complaints.
We were really2 x cukup org.
No kidding.
So I have to admit that it was pretty fucked up.
Our promise is to make sure every guests leaves happy.
But I think not everyone left happy.
I tried. We tried.


There was this guest, said that the service was slow,
Ok I admit.
Then she said that she's working in a service industry too.
I mean wtf?
If you're working in a service industry then you should know better !!
This is fridays.
We give great service.
But if we cant deliver, its always always for a reason.
Again Fuck Off.

We had 3 long tops.
20 pax.
19 pax.
10 pax.
All chinese and VERY VERY VERY LOUD!
No, I dont have anything against them but they are loud and inconsiderate and fussy and rude for no fucking reason.
At least the ones that came and dine last night.
I know theyre paying.
The least you should do is treat your server better,
They are not just stupid people.
They are people who are studying trying to a degree in some expensive college.
Give them a break.
Dont treat them as tho they dont have feelings.
Treat them the way you wanna be treated if you were to be a server.
Be considerate.
Be human!

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

random update.

You know what sux the most bout being in a service industry?


THE GUESTS ARE ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS RIGHT.
Even when they're not! And most of the time, they are not!! And its soo frustrating. Coz there's nothing, absolutely nothing you can do about it.


The next best thing to do when the guest complain is to apologize and smile.. Walk away and as far away from that table until that table is not in sight, then curse the living shit outta that table or that person.. When you're ready to walk back out, take a deep breath. Coz you will need a lot of it to face them. You never know you might just get into another complain. Thats F&B. Not that great after all.


Whenever I face a situation and get yelled at ( it happens. freaky? yes), I would start thinking..
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WORKING IN A RESTAURANT?

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE??


And I dont have the answer to the questions. I dont. I cant say passion coz this is not my passion. Cuisine is. Food is. Writing is. Not running a restaurant.


As you can see, whenever I update my blog, it'll be about f&b. I live and breathe fridays. Andy Dhillon said I should live and breath bedrocks but naaaaaaahhhh.. I live and breath fridays. haha.


I am lifeless in general.
I work 10 hours a day. Maybe more.
One off day a week. Sometimes I dont get off.
I work in Fridays Sunway.
I meet alot of shitty people.
Most shitty people are chinese (no offence) but its true.
Some malays are fussy. SOME!
Im not descriminating. I dont do that.
I dont have a decent social life.
I havent seen my good college frens in many many moons.
The only time I get to see them is when they come and visit me.
And they do visit me.
And I appreciate it lots.
I dont see my bf often.
Sometimes I dont see him the whole month.
This is because he works morning shift most of the time.
And I work 12-10 pm most days.
And that sux.
We would fight.
Sometimes not talk for a whole week.
And that sux but its okie.
So life sux in general.
I think one of my close fren is not talking to me.
I dont know why.
Feels like high school all over again.
Anyhow, whatever je la.
Malas nak terhegeh-hegeh.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

I wonder.

I think I am blessed. Am I? I dont know. Put aside the fact that I dont have time for myself, I actually have a good life now. Im working. A good post. A sort of good pay. And hey! Im just 21. I am happy in some weird ways.


Ever since I started working, I see things in a different perspective. I think. I thought I had bad temper but I guess I dont. Coz I work in a service industry where I have to meet alot of people. People with different characteristics and different needs. And some are more difficult that the other. But I managed it just find. There was never a moment where I totally lost it. Nope. I learn to listen, apologize, respond and say thank you.


Its not easy. Because you will definately meet people who most definately piss the living shit out of you. No doubt. But you have to control. I have to control. Why? This is my rice bowl. Be nice to people, and they will be nice to you. A cliche motto but true.


Whenever Im in a situation where I have to deal with difficult people, I wonder, why would they make a-would-be-easy-situation-difficult.. I wonder if it makes them happy. Being difficult that is. Or does it make them feel great coz they have the guts to argue. I really wonder.


I know some may have gone abroad to study but again I wonder, if you dont possess good manners when it comes to dining or interacting with people you dont know, I really think the money you spent studying far far away, a waste.


Whats the point of blaja tinggi2 and jauh-jauh if attitude mcm pantat ayam? I WONDER! Tak de faedahnya ckp kasar dgn orang. You have nothing to gain but everything to lose. ish. I wonder.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Las Carretas.

Ish.. Liat betul rasa nak update blog. Mcm whenever I wanna blog, Ive got nothing to say. And its crap tau.


Im off today. So thats good I guess. I havent had off for 2 weeks. Today bgn lambat. Best. Dah lama x bgn lambat. Original plan was to meet Dean. But coz we've been fighting for the past 4 days, x jadi. Made plans with Zara all to have dinner. Coincidentally plk, its Ah Liao's bday. So we decided to have dinner in Las Carretas in Taipan. Its a Mexican restaurant. It was great. Great food. Great company. All was great. I havent had fun for the longest time. Too bad Reuben and Akila couldnt make it. It woulda been better.


Honestly, x de mood nak blog. Toodles ~

Sunday, April 06, 2008

I havent been updating my blog. I miss writing. I havent had the time to blog. All I do now is work. It is that demanding. Its really tiring.


Lets talk bout today, shall we? Hmm. I went to work around 12pm. Saturday. Grr. Slammed. Had no time to eat. Had to entertain guests all day long. Lateeer on the night, Denise called. She said she was outside. She came to bring me over to Bar Celona. Ah Liao's birthday celebrating. Oh joy. I forgot. I told her I was about to finish work and asked her if she could wait. She said to call her when Im leaving. So ok. Bagus la tu.


Lepas habis keje pg clubbing. Haih. For a while only. It was alright. Not bad. Met Zara, kyky, renna, andre, ika, justin and wayne there. Had fun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH LIAO!!!!!!
So ok. Sunway is not as bad as thought it would be. Its actually alot of fun. But I do miss PJ tho. I had a blast there. A family. Life goes on.



If you dont know what Im rambling about. I was working in TGIF PJ then I got transfered to TGIF Sunway. So yeah.



Things in PJ.





















Sunday, March 23, 2008

You wanna know what ticks me off? People who orders a whole lot of shiznit and cant even remember what they ordered when the food arrives. Full of crap innit? It is not our obligation to remember every single thing you ordered. Esp not when you brought 30 people over for dinner. NOT OUR OBLIGATION TO REMEMBER YOUR SHIZNIT!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Social life robbed

Ive had a few attemps to update my blog but to no avail. My life's so predictable. I really dont know how it got so boring and yet again, predictable.



Some might think that Im fortunate to working in a famous restaurant, but there's more to that than just being lucky. To have the career that I have now, I have to sacrifice my social life, my free time, my sleep, my rest. I have to be 150% devoted to TGI Friday's. Thats the life Im leading now. The path that I chose. Do I regret it? No, I do not.



I do envy my other frens who are still studying or maybe working but still able to maintain their social life. I do envy. I envy them very much.



To think that I am not able to lead that life again, not flattering. I'd give up anything to be studying again. Not to be cocky, I think I'd be great at studying. But its not meant to be. And I have to work. Ive got a great job. That pays well. Why am I complaining?



I guess I am still that 21 years old girl. Who needs to have fun once in a while. Who needs to let her hair down for once. Who needs to be selfish for once. This 21 years old girl does not have the resources to do all that. At least not yet.



I missed Reuben's biggest gig at Laundry Bar last night coz I had to do closing. I went back home close to 3 am. I missed Akila's big sister's wedding coz I had to work. I had to do swing (12-10). I am missing alot of activities. I hope my frens understands my situation.



Tomorrow will be my 11th day of working without any off day. Tired? HELL YES! From the looks of it, I might get off next week either. Thanks to think Raziq fella who happens to Director of Operations. He is coming down to KL for a visit.



Just to please him, we all have to put in extra hours and energy and effort. Best part, we dont even know if he's even coming over to my store. They say he didnt tell anyone his agenda. He could be coming for a vacation OR he could be coming to buttfuck us all. Take your pick.



Lets talk bout how my day sucked today. Quentin's back. Good news? Im not sure. I kena 'taruk' aka bang-ed by my GM 4 times today. None of which are my fault really. When my staffs are not performing well, the managers have to answer to higher power. Which is utterly unfair. I did all I can already. But they didnt listen. So yeah. I kena taruk 4 times today. I got so pissed so I decided to butt fuck my staff.



If Im going down, Im not gonna go down alone. Especially not when none of it is my fault. I dont appreciate getting butt fuck by James (GM) when I did nothing wrong. I dont like James chasing after me when my staff decided to disappear. In short I do not enjoy people yelling at me for the things that I didnt do. Not that I blame my GM, I dont. I blame my staffs who are so reluctant to listen.



If you think working in an office is hard enuff, try working in F&B line for at least a week. You'll have staffs who'd make your life a total hell and fussy demanding arrogant customers. Thats what we need to deal with here in F&B. Human nature.



I got yelled at. I got cursed at. I got people complaining every single day. And to top it all up, I have to deal with MIKE. The Nightmare, MIKE. grr. I dont even want to start on him.



I think I need a break. A week would be great. So great.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Birthday Boy

Today was supposed to be a great day. But it was entirely bad though.


I got pissed yesterday because when I checked my bank account balance and it wasnt pleasant. I banked in my cheque cum salary last week on thursday. And its still not in yet! I am broke beyond imagination! Its like c'mon. Its the 6th already. I need the money. I need the cash.


V'day's coming soon. I need the money. No, no. Not to buy thingies for the Boyfriend. I have to work on Vday for your FYI. I need the money to buy new clothes. My SPGs aka hostess told me if I wear black on Vday they'd throw me in the tong sampah. Literally. Greatness ey? Threatening a manager. I told them, do that and I'll issue them 2 warning letters without mercy!Just to please everybody, I decided to NOT wear black. Getting something soft.White? I dont know. Did I mention that my SPGs getting me a pair of wings for Vday? They're getting me a pair of wings. They want their manager to be and look feminine. As of Im not feminine enough! grr.


Today is DEAN'S BIRTHDAY!!!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!!!



Semoga dipanjangkan umur and dimurahkan rezeki! I heart you heaps sweetness. Present is on the way! Fret not!

Friday, February 01, 2008

c'est la vie?

Honestly, i dont even know how to start.. I havent blogged for many many many moons.



Lets talk bout life.. Life in general is good. Ive got no time for myself tho. Social totally nil. Thats how demanding working is. Currently in fridays pj. Almost 2 months now. So far so good. I hope I dont get transfered anymore. I am finally happy working. There were times that I wanted to quit. But I tried putting all those negative thoughts to the side. I try not to be so selfish and decided to give pj store a chance. And I dare say I did the right choice by staying. Im having a blast.



The people is great. James is a great gm. Daniel is a good guy. He's like a brother to me now. I can almost tell him anything. We do fight. Thats what brothers and sisters do I guess. Mike? He is Mike. I dont think I can ever describe him. He's just him. Sarcastic and mean and ergghhh.. A pain in my ass. But he's really hardworking. I really respect him. So yeah.. All of us with different characteristics. I dare say, we all compliment each other just find. And again, Im the only female manager around. Tough luck. grrrr...



Enuff bout work. Lets talk bout things that I miss. Or ppl that I truly miss. First off, Dean. Of course. The love of me life. I havent seen him for 2 weeks. Both of us has been busy lately. Either that or we didnt get the same off day. Truly a bummer.His birthday is coming tho. This 6th of feb. No plans so far.



I miss having free time. I miss reading books. I have too many books to finish up and I havent gotten the time nor the energy to complete my whole collection of books. I miss hanging out with my dear frens. My man whore reuben. haha.



I miss college life. Seeing all of my frens still studying.. I feel left out. I want to go back to college. Really.



Finally, I miss being 21. All I do now is work. I woke up and showered and straight to work. Go back earliest at 10 or latest 12. Sleep and wake up and showered and go to work. Thats all I do now. Thats my life now. I miss being young and 21. I dont have time to cherish it. Im scared Im gonna regret working too soon.