I havent updated my blog in the LONGEST time ey? I know. Not that I dont want to, I do. I didnt have the resources to do so. Lots of things happened. Feelings changed. Not sure if I can remember.

Akila said something to me today. She didnt mean it, I know. I shouldnt get it to me. But it did. And I had tears. What she said was true. No matter how good I look, no matter how smart I am, no matter how frenly I am, I'll never find someone. And thats the fcuking truth. Ice said that he's lost somewhere. But I think he doesnt exist. Whatever.

I have developed a crush on a regular guy. No, not just a crush. More than a crush. I'd give up all my leng chais for him. Seriously. Bla bla. Im in love. He cooks! blablala..