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And so its Ramadhan.I hate Ramadhans not because of the the fasting.Trust me,fasting can be fun.I hate Ramadhan because of the atmosphere at home.The part where my dad would throw stuff and want things to be cooked his way and how my mom would curse my dad behind his back,where mom would say that she'll leave my dad if he's throwing stuff again.The funniest part,she never left.He's always throwing out stuff and banging things and shout,and she's still here.Doing this for him.Sometimes I really wonder.Why?

Honestly,my dad has affected in ways that you cannot imagine.Im afraid of guys because of him.Scared that I'll be with someone with his qualities.Its freaky.My sisters are lucky enough coz they found such nice guys to wed.I wonder if I'll get lucky..Maybe when I'm ready to commit with someone.Maybe when I'm finally over Joshua.If thats possible.If I'll ever get over him.Its tough.7 months has passed.Oh well..

I was the only malay girl in my class who had the decency to actually fast.The rest? They had lunch.In public.Its good that they dont care what people think,but there's limits you know.People talk and its rude to eat in public when you are supposed to fast!Ajmal lagi best.He blew smoke in front of my face.I got really pissed.At least those non-malays respected me who was fasting.They didnt even drink in front of me,not that I would mind.But he blew smoke right in front of my face!They're my frens but they need to get their priorities straight.Call me conservative or whatever,I dont care.I know whats right and whats not.I am religious but I know my limits.They're my frens but I look down on them.They have no self respect for themselves and why should other people give them respect?Kasihan LO..

Had oenology class today wit MR.DANIEL arr gear 5 reverse..Tee hee..He's not so yummy now anymore..Donno why..Learnt bout wines.I have no interest in it but I kinda have to go thru it anyways.Oh well..And the assignment for oenology is interesting.Make our very own wine OR history of wine.Mr Daniel arr gear 5 reverse said that the history of wine is the safest compared to making the wine BUT he also said that if we pick to make wines,we'll learn so much more.Fascinating innit?