God,this hurts.

Talked to Josh last night.Thought it'd make my day,boy was I wrong.He told me that he fancies some girl he met last year.Last year.He met that girl when he was with me.Oucchh. That hurts.Didnt think it'd hurt this bad.I feel stupid all of a sudden.Here I am,talking about him again in my blog.Seems that he's my fav subject to talk about.And then there's Josh,somewhere in this world,thinking about that girl when a certain someone in malaysia is in love with him.God,I sound so desperate.Maybe I am.Has been almost 9 months.And Im still waiting for him.I should stop waiting.Maybe he's not worth my time.But he has my heart..But he's my one and my only...God,this hurts too damn much...I cant handle this..