I had less food today. Yeay.
Still want that BDH 18 dude.

I dreamt of Joshua today. I havent talked to him in almost 4 months. And during this 4 months I realized that life goes on without him. Of course I think of him, just not as often as before. And when I do think of him, I feel more angry than love. Coz he wanted to be frens and now he's ignoring me. Frens dont ignore frens. And I hate him for doing that. I hope he's happy now. Coz I am too.

I had alot of food. Not good.
I want that BDH 18 dude. I want. I want!!

I havent updated my blog in the LONGEST time ey? I know. Not that I dont want to, I do. I didnt have the resources to do so. Lots of things happened. Feelings changed. Not sure if I can remember.

Akila said something to me today. She didnt mean it, I know. I shouldnt get it to me. But it did. And I had tears. What she said was true. No matter how good I look, no matter how smart I am, no matter how frenly I am, I'll never find someone. And thats the fcuking truth. Ice said that he's lost somewhere. But I think he doesnt exist. Whatever.

I have developed a crush on a regular guy. No, not just a crush. More than a crush. I'd give up all my leng chais for him. Seriously. Bla bla. Im in love. He cooks! blablala..

"See me in the headlines
Manipulate your simple minds
So put your hands up in praise
I'm your god, and you're my slave
People hate me
Cause I'm better than you
And people hate me
And that's the motherfucking truth
People hate me
And you can all fuck off
I'm perfect, pissed off, beautiful... I'm god." - awesome right?

I wanted to post these pictures last night but the blogger's server was down, go figure. Raya Haji was better than expected. No one came but all of us were there and we got the chance to bond better also to snap pictures. It was indeed a rare occation for me. I had fun & ate alot of SINFUL food. Im telling you. Im getting fat and Im not happy about it. And somehow Im not doing anything about it. Im just controlling my food. Nah, controlling's not the word. Its crash diet. Im not eating. Its not good, I know. But do I look like I care? I dont right? So yeah. If I sakit pon, the one who will take me to the doctors will be, Me. So why bother caring? DEE DAH GEMUK.I dont like.

People that matters.

Aireel. 10 months. Brother's baby.Gorgeous.

Qarl. 4 years old. K. Eleen's lil boy.

Shiver aka Ain. 2 years old. K.Zz'z 2nd baby. My darl.

Shiver. My shiver. Was eating choc cake.

The sister. The niece. The sister & aunty.

The Family. The " We're Not Ready Yet! " picture. My dad snapped it.

"See me in the headlines
Manipulate your simple minds
So put your hands up in praise
I'm your god, and you're my slave
People hate me
Cause I'm better than you
And people hate me
And that's the motherfucking truth
People hate meAnd you can all fuck offI'm perfect, pissed off, beautiful... I'm god." - awesome right?

I wanted to post these pictures last night but the blogger's server was down, go figure. Raya Haji was better than expected. No one came but all of us were there and we got the chance to bond better also to snap pictures. It was indeed a rare occation for me. I had fun & ate alot of SINFUL food. Im telling you. Im getting fat and Im not happy about it. And somehow Im not doing anything about it. Im just controlling my food. Nah, controlling's not the word. Its crash diet. Im not eating. Its not good, I know. But do I look like I care? I dont right? So yeah. If I sakit pon, the one who will take me to the doctors will be, Me. So why bother caring? DEE DAH GEMUK.I dont like.

People that matters.

Aireel. 10 months. Brother's baby.Gorgeous.

Qarl. 4 years old. K. Eleen's lil boy.

Shiver aka Ain. 2 years old. K.Zz'z 2nd baby. My darl.

Shiver. My shiver. Was eating choc cake.


The sister. The niece. The sister & aunty.

The bro in law & his babies.


The 'not- married yet' sisters.

My rockstar. My shiver. My Ain.


Seriously, she's one hella cute baby huh? I agree. She makes me happy. I love all of my nieces & nephews equally. Its just that I took care of Ain when she was a baby. So, its different after you cleaned her dumps and put up with her sleeping habit.