Because I wuv yew.

How can a person be so blind? When one has done so much? And so unappreciative.
Words can't even begin to describe my feelings.

If someone had told me last year that my life would be complicated beyond complicated, I would just honestly, laugh it all off.
Because, I don't do complicated.
Its either boring or uninteresting.
No more. No less.

But here I am today, trying to figure out how to untangle my complicated knots.
Why things happened in the first place, was beyond my control.
If I can make things go my way, trust me, I would have left earlier.
But things didn't go my way.
And despite numerous advices given to me by my lovelies, I stayed stubborn and continued what I started.
And now, I'm in too deep.
And I don't know how to stop.
And I'm not sure if I want to stop as well.
Because??
Because....
Because....?
Simple..
Because I love him.
Its as simple as that.

I call it love.
My lovelies call it infatuation.
I disagree.
But I respect your opinion regardless.

Why I do the things that I do for you, only because I want to and because I love you.
I never ask anything else in return but 2.
Honesty and loyalty.
Is it too much to ask?

Budak-budak lagi.

I'm amazed. I always thought my inner child is massive. I thought wrong it seems.
I found out certain people can make such a big fuss over something so petty.
Big fuss over some so petty is one thing, but those bunch can't even get their information right.
And they just bang me over in fb with no concrete evidence. How low can they go?
I chose to stay quiet because I know what I'm doing. And I believe what I'm doing right now is right.
And that I don't need to answer them or live up to their expectations because I am nothing like them.
Why I do the things that I do is my business. Why things happened in the first place is beyond my control.
If by making people look bad makes you happy, well go and knock yourself out.
It wont affect me.

Square one again.

Honestly & seriously, I don't know what has got into me. I didn't know life could be so complicated. I never knew I could be so weak.

Emotional roller-coaster. Yep. Definitely emotional roller-coaster. All the feelings that I've kept hidden all these years, came back without permission. And its driving me mental.

Tried crying it out, but to no avail. Simply because I'm a snowflake. Cold.

I was with someone for 31/2 years. It ended. In good terms.

Then I met someone new soon after. It's good when things are good. And horrible when things gets fugly.

Then I found myself being alone again. Then back together again.

Again, alone. Again, together.

I'm confused.

You drive me crazy. But I still love you.

Love vs stupidity?

Ive been finding the courage to reactivate my blog. I know it sounds stupid but Ive been wanting to for so long that I ended up logging out instead. I dont know why. I know Ive said this time & time again but I just feel like I have nothing else to say anymore.