Finally,I went to Mamak Bistro for dinner.Actually,I didnt eat but I went there anyways coz I wanted to buy 'Corspe Bride' but they dont have it.Bummer.So yeah,was glad that I went to Mamak Bistro.Shouldnt have gone to that Syed.Wasted my money.The food sucked big time.Mamak Bistro's the best..Semangat seyh.Yes Hilly,Ive sure have learnt my lesson.
Going to see Iffah tomorrow.Yeay~ It has been awhile.I havent seen her for a year and a half.And boy she sure has changed.Physically.A huge transformation.A good huge transformation btw.ahah..Let's just see how that goes..
Nitey.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Jack and Jill went out to kill..
Do you like your name? My given name or the one I use here? Never really thought about if I like my given name or not, and if I didn't like the one I use here then I wouldn't be using it.
Is doing illegal shit commonplace to you? Nope.
Have you ever been a prefect? No.
Are chores for bores? They could be. Maybe I ought to spend my time doing chores since apparently, I'm a bore.
Can you hold your own in a fight? Never been in a fight to be able to say if I could or not.
Is Tarantino a cinematic genius or a crude, derivative schlockmeister? I don't really care.
Did your parents never allow friends 'round after school? They didnt care.
Do you consider yourself the epitome of cool? Maybe the epitome of stupidity, yes - but the epitome of cool?? HA.
Do you always wash your cup after using it? Yeah.Somewhat.
Does the fact that the world will be engulfed by the Sun in around 4 billion years bother you? Nope, because I likely won't be around then.
Do you belong to Mensa? Nope.
Am I the only one who screws up burning CDs? One out of five cds I've burned got screwed up.
If you had to, would you fuck Elvis? UGH. That is most definitely not a nice thought at all.
Do you find completing surveys fulfilling? Fulfilling.... ha haha. I just fill them out because I have nothing better to do.
Can you iron worth a rat’s ass? Hell yeah!
Are people forbidden to wear shoes in your home? Its rude to wear shoes in people's home.I was taught that way.
Do you know how many CDs are in your collection? Last time I counted I had over 200.
Is your music collection alphabetised? That'd definitely be a time-consuming task if I chose to do so.
Do you know your RAM from your ROM? No.
Can you change a plug without the result blacking out half the neighbourhood? I dunno. Never had to.
Do you vacuum every day? Nope.
Do you have a `must watch’ TV program that you’d kill for rather than miss? The TV stalks me when I'm sleeping. No kidding, it sits outside my bedroom door and spies on me. It watches me. Then, when I wake up to get a glass of water or something, it scampers back downstairs and pretends it was sitting there all along. I know better though.....
Have you ever installed Windows without having a mental breakdown? Yeah, I have.
Do you own more than ten books? Yeah.
Can you cook without the risk of making people barf? Hey thats offensive.Im offended.Im a good cook.And people dont barf after eating the food I made ok?
You turn up to a party & someone’s wearing the same outfit as you: do you die, kill them or leave? Holy Hell, I turned up at a party?? Obviously, I must be crashing it because I'm never invited to parties. Anyways, why worry? I probably look better in that outfit.
Have you ever puked in someone else’s home? Yeah, but at least I had the decency to do that in the bathroom.
Do you know the formula for solving a quadratic equation? I do, I just don't remember right now and I don't feel like thinking about it.
Have you seen Jerry Springer – The Musical? Nope. I wasn't aware there was one.
Does the Euclidean algorithm for computing the greatest common divisor of two integers mean anything to you? Yeah, it means that it was something I learned in some math class or other in high school.
Have you been fired from a job for persistent tardy, or non, attendance? Nope.
Did you ever win a prize at school? Handball tournament.
Do you carry spare nylons with you in case you or a friend get a run? I don't wear nylons to begin with, and if I did - I'd only carry a spare pair with me in case I got a run. I don't hand out nylons to other people.
If the severed heads of everyone who uses Linux were lined up end to end would you even care? Really, is this something I should care about?
Can you spell defenestration? You've already spelled it out for me, so that'd be cheating.
Do you know what it means? Not offhand, but I could go look it up. If I could find the dictionary, that is.
Is Bono God? No.
Have you ever displayed your genitals in public? No, and I don't foresee that as being something I'll ever do.
Do you pretend to become slightly orgasmic at the thought of vampire lust? Pretend?
Can you tell me which song that’s from? I have no clue what song that's from.
Have you read The Lord Of The Rings? Nope. Maybe someday though.
Do you quote verses from The Bible as passers-by in the street? I dont even quote verses from the Holy Quran often enough.
Can you juggle? Never tried it.
Do you think bouncy castles are fun? I've never been in a bouncy castle.
Are the majority of your clothes designer dry clean only? Well, some of them are dry-clean-only, but they're not designer.
Have you ever glued your fingers together on purpose? Yeah.It was fun.
Do you like muesli? Hmm..Never tried it.
Is batik cool? Hell yeah!
Do you smoke French cigarettes? I don't smoke cigarettes of any nationality.
Do you visit the hairdresser more than once a month? Nope. I get my hair trimmed every once in a while.
Is your feng shui good? Probably not.
Have you ever been threatened with being committed to an asylum? Umm.No.
Ever made excuses to skip gym class? Of course, it was one of the classes I disliked the most.
Did you instead have to sit it out, watch the others in your stockinged feet and be made to feel like a dweeb? Sit it out.
Have you ever denied a MySpace friend request on a random whim of spite? Nope. However, I have deleted those that never bothered to send a message of any sort ever.
Was Jello Biafra right on in his mayoral campaign with his policy of business people having to dress like clowns during working hours? Hmm... I'm not sure. If this means office people and such, perhaps. But if you work in a business, wouldn't that sort of make you a business person? I'd rather not have to dress like a clown; I despise clowns.
Is Michael Moore the voice of a nation or a fat slob? I know who he is.But I just dont care.
Do you summer in The Hamptons? Summer all year long in Malaysia.
Have you got sexually aroused while reading American Psycho? I haven't read it, so I don't know.
Do you wish you were Marilyn Manson? Errr.... no.
What’s the worst insult you can think of? "That sounds like a personal problem to me."
Did you have a lazy eye as a child and have to wear a patch occasionally? Nope.
Do you have imaginary friends? Maybe. I don't know. What would you call it if you talk to dolls as if they can answer you? Oh, wait... that might be considered 'mentally disturbed'. Ok, never mind then.
Do you prefer them to your `real’ ones? Eh... well, the dolls aren't going to leave me behind or push me away at all.
Are spider webs indoors? In my house, they are.
Have you have ECT? ..... What?
Do you believe awesomest is a proper word? I don't care if it's a proper word or not. I don't use it.
Have you ever frequently wished you were dead? Considering the fact I've attempted suicide on a few occasions, that should be enough to answer the question.
How many roads must a man walk down before you can call him a man? The hell if I know.
Do you think digital watches are a pretty neat idea? They're kind of cool, although probably not something I'd own.
Have you ever spelled out words on your calculator? Yeah.... actually, on my graphing calculator in high school during math class one day, I found two equations that - when graphed together - make a graph that resembles a pot leaf.
Are Beavis and Butt-head your role models? Bloody hell no.
Does the 30th anniversary edition of Night Of The Living Dead blow chunks? I don't believe I've seen it.
Have you ever discussed Chekov at a dinner party? Nope. I've never been to a dinner party anyhow.
Did you think I meant the dude from Star Trek? What dude from Star Trek?
Have you ever held your breath until you turned blue? Not that I can recall.
Do you make your bed with hospital corners? Geshh.no.
Should Eric Clapton die NOW? I don't give a bloody damn about this.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night over unfulfilled dreams? Ohh, no - not over unfulfilled dreams. However, I have cried myself to sleep when every bloody damned thing seems to be going as wrong as it possibly can. Mental breakdowns, perhaps?
Do you suffer from an OCD? Right now, I'm not with it enough to comprehend what this means.
Do you wish you had a complete set of Star Wars action figures? Nope. I have a Darth Vader figure, and I'm happy with that.
Does “what’s the worst that can happen?” sound like a portent, or a challenge to you? Depends on the situation.
Can you lick your own eyebrows? I don't need to have tried this to know I can't do this.
Have you ever been mistaken for someone famous? Nope.
Have you ever walked doggy doo into someone’s home? I don't think I ever have.
Was it on purpose? If I ever did, it was unintentional.
Does your chewing gum lose its flavour on the bedpost overnight? I don't put my chewing gum on the bedpost overnight. I don't care for gum to begin with.
Have you ever fantasized about being eaten by an octopus? Now that you mention it,..... no.
Are either of your parents in prison for a felony? Neither of my parents are in prison to begin with.
Do you own a Persian rug? No, and I can't say that's a goal in life either.
Who does the Moon belong to? Princess Kaguya.
Did you feel a particular question was directed at you personally? Not at all.
Is doing illegal shit commonplace to you? Nope.
Have you ever been a prefect? No.
Are chores for bores? They could be. Maybe I ought to spend my time doing chores since apparently, I'm a bore.
Can you hold your own in a fight? Never been in a fight to be able to say if I could or not.
Is Tarantino a cinematic genius or a crude, derivative schlockmeister? I don't really care.
Did your parents never allow friends 'round after school? They didnt care.
Do you consider yourself the epitome of cool? Maybe the epitome of stupidity, yes - but the epitome of cool?? HA.
Do you always wash your cup after using it? Yeah.Somewhat.
Does the fact that the world will be engulfed by the Sun in around 4 billion years bother you? Nope, because I likely won't be around then.
Do you belong to Mensa? Nope.
Am I the only one who screws up burning CDs? One out of five cds I've burned got screwed up.
If you had to, would you fuck Elvis? UGH. That is most definitely not a nice thought at all.
Do you find completing surveys fulfilling? Fulfilling.... ha haha. I just fill them out because I have nothing better to do.
Can you iron worth a rat’s ass? Hell yeah!
Are people forbidden to wear shoes in your home? Its rude to wear shoes in people's home.I was taught that way.
Do you know how many CDs are in your collection? Last time I counted I had over 200.
Is your music collection alphabetised? That'd definitely be a time-consuming task if I chose to do so.
Do you know your RAM from your ROM? No.
Can you change a plug without the result blacking out half the neighbourhood? I dunno. Never had to.
Do you vacuum every day? Nope.
Do you have a `must watch’ TV program that you’d kill for rather than miss? The TV stalks me when I'm sleeping. No kidding, it sits outside my bedroom door and spies on me. It watches me. Then, when I wake up to get a glass of water or something, it scampers back downstairs and pretends it was sitting there all along. I know better though.....
Have you ever installed Windows without having a mental breakdown? Yeah, I have.
Do you own more than ten books? Yeah.
Can you cook without the risk of making people barf? Hey thats offensive.Im offended.Im a good cook.And people dont barf after eating the food I made ok?
You turn up to a party & someone’s wearing the same outfit as you: do you die, kill them or leave? Holy Hell, I turned up at a party?? Obviously, I must be crashing it because I'm never invited to parties. Anyways, why worry? I probably look better in that outfit.
Have you ever puked in someone else’s home? Yeah, but at least I had the decency to do that in the bathroom.
Do you know the formula for solving a quadratic equation? I do, I just don't remember right now and I don't feel like thinking about it.
Have you seen Jerry Springer – The Musical? Nope. I wasn't aware there was one.
Does the Euclidean algorithm for computing the greatest common divisor of two integers mean anything to you? Yeah, it means that it was something I learned in some math class or other in high school.
Have you been fired from a job for persistent tardy, or non, attendance? Nope.
Did you ever win a prize at school? Handball tournament.
Do you carry spare nylons with you in case you or a friend get a run? I don't wear nylons to begin with, and if I did - I'd only carry a spare pair with me in case I got a run. I don't hand out nylons to other people.
If the severed heads of everyone who uses Linux were lined up end to end would you even care? Really, is this something I should care about?
Can you spell defenestration? You've already spelled it out for me, so that'd be cheating.
Do you know what it means? Not offhand, but I could go look it up. If I could find the dictionary, that is.
Is Bono God? No.
Have you ever displayed your genitals in public? No, and I don't foresee that as being something I'll ever do.
Do you pretend to become slightly orgasmic at the thought of vampire lust? Pretend?
Can you tell me which song that’s from? I have no clue what song that's from.
Have you read The Lord Of The Rings? Nope. Maybe someday though.
Do you quote verses from The Bible as passers-by in the street? I dont even quote verses from the Holy Quran often enough.
Can you juggle? Never tried it.
Do you think bouncy castles are fun? I've never been in a bouncy castle.
Are the majority of your clothes designer dry clean only? Well, some of them are dry-clean-only, but they're not designer.
Have you ever glued your fingers together on purpose? Yeah.It was fun.
Do you like muesli? Hmm..Never tried it.
Is batik cool? Hell yeah!
Do you smoke French cigarettes? I don't smoke cigarettes of any nationality.
Do you visit the hairdresser more than once a month? Nope. I get my hair trimmed every once in a while.
Is your feng shui good? Probably not.
Have you ever been threatened with being committed to an asylum? Umm.No.
Ever made excuses to skip gym class? Of course, it was one of the classes I disliked the most.
Did you instead have to sit it out, watch the others in your stockinged feet and be made to feel like a dweeb? Sit it out.
Have you ever denied a MySpace friend request on a random whim of spite? Nope. However, I have deleted those that never bothered to send a message of any sort ever.
Was Jello Biafra right on in his mayoral campaign with his policy of business people having to dress like clowns during working hours? Hmm... I'm not sure. If this means office people and such, perhaps. But if you work in a business, wouldn't that sort of make you a business person? I'd rather not have to dress like a clown; I despise clowns.
Is Michael Moore the voice of a nation or a fat slob? I know who he is.But I just dont care.
Do you summer in The Hamptons? Summer all year long in Malaysia.
Have you got sexually aroused while reading American Psycho? I haven't read it, so I don't know.
Do you wish you were Marilyn Manson? Errr.... no.
What’s the worst insult you can think of? "That sounds like a personal problem to me."
Did you have a lazy eye as a child and have to wear a patch occasionally? Nope.
Do you have imaginary friends? Maybe. I don't know. What would you call it if you talk to dolls as if they can answer you? Oh, wait... that might be considered 'mentally disturbed'. Ok, never mind then.
Do you prefer them to your `real’ ones? Eh... well, the dolls aren't going to leave me behind or push me away at all.
Are spider webs indoors? In my house, they are.
Have you have ECT? ..... What?
Do you believe awesomest is a proper word? I don't care if it's a proper word or not. I don't use it.
Have you ever frequently wished you were dead? Considering the fact I've attempted suicide on a few occasions, that should be enough to answer the question.
How many roads must a man walk down before you can call him a man? The hell if I know.
Do you think digital watches are a pretty neat idea? They're kind of cool, although probably not something I'd own.
Have you ever spelled out words on your calculator? Yeah.... actually, on my graphing calculator in high school during math class one day, I found two equations that - when graphed together - make a graph that resembles a pot leaf.
Are Beavis and Butt-head your role models? Bloody hell no.
Does the 30th anniversary edition of Night Of The Living Dead blow chunks? I don't believe I've seen it.
Have you ever discussed Chekov at a dinner party? Nope. I've never been to a dinner party anyhow.
Did you think I meant the dude from Star Trek? What dude from Star Trek?
Have you ever held your breath until you turned blue? Not that I can recall.
Do you make your bed with hospital corners? Geshh.no.
Should Eric Clapton die NOW? I don't give a bloody damn about this.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night over unfulfilled dreams? Ohh, no - not over unfulfilled dreams. However, I have cried myself to sleep when every bloody damned thing seems to be going as wrong as it possibly can. Mental breakdowns, perhaps?
Do you suffer from an OCD? Right now, I'm not with it enough to comprehend what this means.
Do you wish you had a complete set of Star Wars action figures? Nope. I have a Darth Vader figure, and I'm happy with that.
Does “what’s the worst that can happen?” sound like a portent, or a challenge to you? Depends on the situation.
Can you lick your own eyebrows? I don't need to have tried this to know I can't do this.
Have you ever been mistaken for someone famous? Nope.
Have you ever walked doggy doo into someone’s home? I don't think I ever have.
Was it on purpose? If I ever did, it was unintentional.
Does your chewing gum lose its flavour on the bedpost overnight? I don't put my chewing gum on the bedpost overnight. I don't care for gum to begin with.
Have you ever fantasized about being eaten by an octopus? Now that you mention it,..... no.
Are either of your parents in prison for a felony? Neither of my parents are in prison to begin with.
Do you own a Persian rug? No, and I can't say that's a goal in life either.
Who does the Moon belong to? Princess Kaguya.
Did you feel a particular question was directed at you personally? Not at all.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Pimple attack.
I watched Madagascar 3 times today!
And I laughed at all the same jokes 3 times too!
"Wake up Mr.Alex,wake up,Rise and Shining,Wakey wakey Mr.Alex,You suck your thumb?"LOL..
I think Hilly remembered most of the lines..tee hee..
Today was pure boredom but at least I had madagascar,
so it wasnt so bad.
My dad's going back to T'ganu tomorrow.
~yeay~
I hope he comes back like 10 years from now.
I wanna go to Yumchha's bbq party on sat.At ridzuan.By the pool.With Ing Haw.WOAH.
Pure heaven,Inghaw.
Ahhahah.
But now,he's in Kuching.
Arghh..
So,tomorrow..
I want to go to the salon.
I want to get my facial stuff coz my skin's getting dry and I hate it.
I want to finish reading reuben's book coz I have a few more books all lined up.
I want to talk to Joshua.
I talked to him only once ever since I started college and thats just sad.
I miss him.
Feh.
And I laughed at all the same jokes 3 times too!
"Wake up Mr.Alex,wake up,Rise and Shining,Wakey wakey Mr.Alex,You suck your thumb?"LOL..
I think Hilly remembered most of the lines..tee hee..
Today was pure boredom but at least I had madagascar,
so it wasnt so bad.
My dad's going back to T'ganu tomorrow.
~yeay~
I hope he comes back like 10 years from now.
I wanna go to Yumchha's bbq party on sat.At ridzuan.By the pool.With Ing Haw.WOAH.
Pure heaven,Inghaw.
Ahhahah.
But now,he's in Kuching.
Arghh..
So,tomorrow..
I want to go to the salon.
I want to get my facial stuff coz my skin's getting dry and I hate it.
I want to finish reading reuben's book coz I have a few more books all lined up.
I want to talk to Joshua.
I talked to him only once ever since I started college and thats just sad.
I miss him.
Feh.
Akila and Zara kidnapped me.
I woke up this morning and they were right in front of my house.
Waiting for me.
They waited for me to get ready coz they wanted me to go to Akila's place.
Swimming.She has a pool.
Cool hor.
I didnt want to swim but the water was so irresistable so I joined them.
Before that,
we went to carrefour and bought food to make a tuna sandwich.
It was fun really.
But since I came back late,
I got hell from dad.
He,again,called me names.
Names that he shouldnt have called me.
It was not like I came back really late.
It was only 8pm.
I cant forgive him.
Never.
Sometimes,I hate him so much that I even wished him dead.
I know.Cruelty.
But I cant help feeling the way that I do.
I feel like Im being treated like a kid.
I dont appreciate it.
Doesnt mean that he lies all the time,
I'd do the same thing.
Ground me or whatever.
Just dont call me unpleasant names.
Very offensive.
And for him to say that I get influenced easily,
offended me the most coz that statement made me
realize that he doesnt know me at all.
Im around people that smokes,go clubbing,drinks and all.
And if I get influenced easily,
wouldnt I be doing all that too?
Whats his right to say that to me?
He doesnt even know me.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him
To make things worst,
I was forced to eat dinner by him with him.
I cant even look at him now.
Im so angry.
Argh.
I woke up this morning and they were right in front of my house.
Waiting for me.
They waited for me to get ready coz they wanted me to go to Akila's place.
Swimming.She has a pool.
Cool hor.
I didnt want to swim but the water was so irresistable so I joined them.
Before that,
we went to carrefour and bought food to make a tuna sandwich.
It was fun really.
But since I came back late,
I got hell from dad.
He,again,called me names.
Names that he shouldnt have called me.
It was not like I came back really late.
It was only 8pm.
I cant forgive him.
Never.
Sometimes,I hate him so much that I even wished him dead.
I know.Cruelty.
But I cant help feeling the way that I do.
I feel like Im being treated like a kid.
I dont appreciate it.
Doesnt mean that he lies all the time,
I'd do the same thing.
Ground me or whatever.
Just dont call me unpleasant names.
Very offensive.
And for him to say that I get influenced easily,
offended me the most coz that statement made me
realize that he doesnt know me at all.
Im around people that smokes,go clubbing,drinks and all.
And if I get influenced easily,
wouldnt I be doing all that too?
Whats his right to say that to me?
He doesnt even know me.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him
To make things worst,
I was forced to eat dinner by him with him.
I cant even look at him now.
Im so angry.
Argh.
Monday, September 26, 2005
emotional breakdown.
-I dont know what to say coz nothing interesting happened.
-Talked to Budi just now.He's in Indonesia now.One week break pon balik indonesia.We cant understand each other and yet we're frens.Funny la that guy.
I miss joshua..Thats all..I maybe mean and all but i miss the guy..Donno why.oh i want mr daniel too..can?
-Talked to Budi just now.He's in Indonesia now.One week break pon balik indonesia.We cant understand each other and yet we're frens.Funny la that guy.
I miss joshua..Thats all..I maybe mean and all but i miss the guy..Donno why.oh i want mr daniel too..can?
Saturday, September 24, 2005
9.24.2005
I cant stop writing
Your always in my head
My feelings are fighting
Because I want you to be dead
Dead in my head
But diffidently not for real
I want to rest in bed
And have dreams for you not to steal
I want to sleep in peace
But you call interrupting
It is such a tease
And always so abrupting....
Cause I don't want to let go
You are the one I love
It will forever show
Until I'm headed up above
Maybe that day is soon
I can see it around the corner
Then I'll just be another buffoon
Without another mourner
He would never cry
Or even show his face
Cause he wishes me to die
For I'm such a disgrace
Or is this just my mind
Making up another way
One more way to find
And lose another day?
Cause things don't look so good
And the future has nothing to hold
Just when I thought it would
It was taken, and suddenly sold
So why should I go on?
Because nothing is ever right
Why cant he be the one
To help put of a fight?
I just wanted to be happy
And see the light of day
But things just get more crappy
In every single way...
I cant see through the dark
And I'm suddenly smitten with fear
What you did left a mark
And made me cry my last tear...
For my heart will not break
Not one second more
It's time for this spirit to wake
As my body falls to the floor
As soon as I am up above
Or in the lair of the devil
I'll be watching my white dove
Become just more of a rebel..
I'll be whipping away tears
That used to cause pain
And show no more fears
Cause this life is not in vain...
I will not talk of you
As you talk of me
That's not something I can do
And I'm so sorry you cant see..
I love you with my heart
Every God d a m n peace
The one that's ripped apart
And has blood in the crease
They say he's not worth my tears
But I know he is
He's why I fought my fears
And continued to live
So how can you stop loving
When you care so much
And they suddenly stop coming
Your left without a touch?
I'm sorry that I cry
I know you don't want to see my tears
But without you I would die
And never get through these years...
At least that's what I thought
Long and behold
I can move on
And find some heart of gold
There is someone for me
It will just take time
And suddenly I will see
Love is not a crime...
Your always in my head
My feelings are fighting
Because I want you to be dead
Dead in my head
But diffidently not for real
I want to rest in bed
And have dreams for you not to steal
I want to sleep in peace
But you call interrupting
It is such a tease
And always so abrupting....
Cause I don't want to let go
You are the one I love
It will forever show
Until I'm headed up above
Maybe that day is soon
I can see it around the corner
Then I'll just be another buffoon
Without another mourner
He would never cry
Or even show his face
Cause he wishes me to die
For I'm such a disgrace
Or is this just my mind
Making up another way
One more way to find
And lose another day?
Cause things don't look so good
And the future has nothing to hold
Just when I thought it would
It was taken, and suddenly sold
So why should I go on?
Because nothing is ever right
Why cant he be the one
To help put of a fight?
I just wanted to be happy
And see the light of day
But things just get more crappy
In every single way...
I cant see through the dark
And I'm suddenly smitten with fear
What you did left a mark
And made me cry my last tear...
For my heart will not break
Not one second more
It's time for this spirit to wake
As my body falls to the floor
As soon as I am up above
Or in the lair of the devil
I'll be watching my white dove
Become just more of a rebel..
I'll be whipping away tears
That used to cause pain
And show no more fears
Cause this life is not in vain...
I will not talk of you
As you talk of me
That's not something I can do
And I'm so sorry you cant see..
I love you with my heart
Every God d a m n peace
The one that's ripped apart
And has blood in the crease
They say he's not worth my tears
But I know he is
He's why I fought my fears
And continued to live
So how can you stop loving
When you care so much
And they suddenly stop coming
Your left without a touch?
I'm sorry that I cry
I know you don't want to see my tears
But without you I would die
And never get through these years...
At least that's what I thought
Long and behold
I can move on
And find some heart of gold
There is someone for me
It will just take time
And suddenly I will see
Love is not a crime...
Happy family.
-Dah start cuti.Bosan la.Yesterday was my last paper.Business.It was so-so la.
-I found out that Chef Patrick Siaw will be my chef next term..Seii..He's like damn garang la.But Chef Tan said anyone who used to be his students turned out to be a very diciplined ones.Thats good right?Oh well..Mr.Suhaimi will be our F&B practical lecturer and OH and OH...Mr Daniel will teach us again. WHEEEEEEEEEE. Teee hee..
One more bad news,Ms.Alice Chung's going to teach us english.Damn.She's like so boring.Haih.
-One week holiday.Dont know what to do.Im going to miss college specifically Mr.Daniel.Woo hoo..
-My mom is getting annoying.Its always Baby wants that.Baby wants this.Baby wants to borrow your clothes.Baby wants to eat this.Baby wants me to call her.Baby wants a new phone.Baby wants a laptop.Baby's having her exam,better call her and wish her luck.And at the same time,I was having my exam and did she wished me luck?No..Did she wake up early?No..Did she even care?No..The only thing she said to me was,'you better pass your exams or you're not going to college anymore.'Gessh mom,thanks for being so enthusiastic.Cant wait for me to fail huh?Guess what?Not going to happen.Coz I'll be a veledictorian in the future.Im not going to fail.She's getting annoying.Im getting annoyed.See,how happy my family makes me?
-I found out that Chef Patrick Siaw will be my chef next term..Seii..He's like damn garang la.But Chef Tan said anyone who used to be his students turned out to be a very diciplined ones.Thats good right?Oh well..Mr.Suhaimi will be our F&B practical lecturer and OH and OH...Mr Daniel will teach us again. WHEEEEEEEEEE. Teee hee..
One more bad news,Ms.Alice Chung's going to teach us english.Damn.She's like so boring.Haih.
-One week holiday.Dont know what to do.Im going to miss college specifically Mr.Daniel.Woo hoo..
-My mom is getting annoying.Its always Baby wants that.Baby wants this.Baby wants to borrow your clothes.Baby wants to eat this.Baby wants me to call her.Baby wants a new phone.Baby wants a laptop.Baby's having her exam,better call her and wish her luck.And at the same time,I was having my exam and did she wished me luck?No..Did she wake up early?No..Did she even care?No..The only thing she said to me was,'you better pass your exams or you're not going to college anymore.'Gessh mom,thanks for being so enthusiastic.Cant wait for me to fail huh?Guess what?Not going to happen.Coz I'll be a veledictorian in the future.Im not going to fail.She's getting annoying.Im getting annoyed.See,how happy my family makes me?
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Gone.
I have to pull myself together.
He's gone.All gone.
I am missing him.
I havent seen him in weeks.
Havent had a consersation with him since I started studying.
One more paper to go.
Good luck to me.
He's gone.All gone.
I am missing him.
I havent seen him in weeks.
Havent had a consersation with him since I started studying.
One more paper to go.
Good luck to me.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Masses of morons.
-Finally,my kitchen and f&b assessment are over.Finito for this term.I think I did good.If I dont score,I'd pass,I hope.
-I was surrounded by masses of morons when I was busy studying in the library later on the afternoon.Lucky me coz the masses of morons was my very own friends.I heart all of them but they had no respect for me who was studying.They were busy playing around.Ok,maybe Akila studied but the rest played.If they wanted to play they should've gone to the lounge and chased each other.Pardon me if I want to pass my exams with flying colors.
-Mr Daniel's mighty fine.He was the only lecturer to actually visit us in our classrooms while we were doing our exams.He wanted to check on us.It was nice of him.And seeing him made me want to work even harder!tee hee..
-Everyone is busy with what to wear to 'mafia' night.Get a grip.Just wear anything comfy.I wont wear anything uncomfortable just to look nice.That'll be dumb.Let me say this,I'll wear whatever I please.It's fun to have a theme but when the theme is 'mafia',its hard to get stuff you know.blearghh..
-I miss charlene.Missing her truly.I want Mr.Daniel.Can?
-I was surrounded by masses of morons when I was busy studying in the library later on the afternoon.Lucky me coz the masses of morons was my very own friends.I heart all of them but they had no respect for me who was studying.They were busy playing around.Ok,maybe Akila studied but the rest played.If they wanted to play they should've gone to the lounge and chased each other.Pardon me if I want to pass my exams with flying colors.
-Mr Daniel's mighty fine.He was the only lecturer to actually visit us in our classrooms while we were doing our exams.He wanted to check on us.It was nice of him.And seeing him made me want to work even harder!tee hee..
-Everyone is busy with what to wear to 'mafia' night.Get a grip.Just wear anything comfy.I wont wear anything uncomfortable just to look nice.That'll be dumb.Let me say this,I'll wear whatever I please.It's fun to have a theme but when the theme is 'mafia',its hard to get stuff you know.blearghh..
-I miss charlene.Missing her truly.I want Mr.Daniel.Can?
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
REMINISCE.
-Exam today.English je but was still exam.Was quite tough on the grammer section but more relaxed on the essay section.Im all about writing.I dont know if its good enough.All I can say is that,I did my best.
-Tomorrow's Kitchen and F&B.Die and Die.I need to see Mr.Daniel.I've been meaning to ask him about the Plat du Jour and Carte du Jour.I understood it yesterday and the more I thought about it,the more confused I became.I asked people but they all got confused as well.Oh well.
-Went to the mamak after exam and lepak-ed for awhile with my fellow classmates.And after that,Ben Zara and I went to pyramid for fun.We were bored.Guess who I bumped into?Yoke,IngHaw,Alex and Calvin.I could never be like Yoke.All flirty and all.Dont think I want to be like that.
So we hung out together after that.Went to Topshop and surveyed this cool hat that'd be so cool to wear to the 'mafia' night.IngHaw looked good in it but then again,he looks good in everything.But the hat was quite expensive.It was rm123.For a hat?Not worth it but it was so cool.Played around abit and then settled in Waffle World or something.Was ok for light eating.And then off we go.Home sweet home.
- I miss Yuzni.I miss working.I miss my once upon a time collegues.I hated some of them but loved most of them.Loved my job.Missed fighting with fussy customers.Missed fighting with Rizal.Missed having lunch with K.Yat,K.Juanna,K.Ummu,K.Sal and all.Esp missed the times where Yuzni and I would irritate K.Ummu and her skirts.She can be so funny at times.She's the only girl in MPH that able to carry alot of cartons without suffering a backpain.She's like hulk hogan.And we'd say stuff like,'k.ummu dah ade muscle2 yg best after angkat cartons yg berat2'.She'd get annoyed coz she's kinda big herself.And k.yati would say 'anak dare tak elok angkat bende berat2'.I miss all those times.
-Times that we couldnt decide where to go for lunch.Times where I'd laugh at Nabilla whenever she eats rice coz she seldom eat rice.She's so cute.
-Yuzni..We're so different and yet we were really close.Both of us would run around MPH looking for books.And usually akan menyampah if the book tinggal just one more copy coz we'd never find it.
-I miss Yuzni la.Wonder how she's doing..tee hee..
-Tomorrow's Kitchen and F&B.Die and Die.I need to see Mr.Daniel.I've been meaning to ask him about the Plat du Jour and Carte du Jour.I understood it yesterday and the more I thought about it,the more confused I became.I asked people but they all got confused as well.Oh well.
-Went to the mamak after exam and lepak-ed for awhile with my fellow classmates.And after that,Ben Zara and I went to pyramid for fun.We were bored.Guess who I bumped into?Yoke,IngHaw,Alex and Calvin.I could never be like Yoke.All flirty and all.Dont think I want to be like that.
So we hung out together after that.Went to Topshop and surveyed this cool hat that'd be so cool to wear to the 'mafia' night.IngHaw looked good in it but then again,he looks good in everything.But the hat was quite expensive.It was rm123.For a hat?Not worth it but it was so cool.Played around abit and then settled in Waffle World or something.Was ok for light eating.And then off we go.Home sweet home.
- I miss Yuzni.I miss working.I miss my once upon a time collegues.I hated some of them but loved most of them.Loved my job.Missed fighting with fussy customers.Missed fighting with Rizal.Missed having lunch with K.Yat,K.Juanna,K.Ummu,K.Sal and all.Esp missed the times where Yuzni and I would irritate K.Ummu and her skirts.She can be so funny at times.She's the only girl in MPH that able to carry alot of cartons without suffering a backpain.She's like hulk hogan.And we'd say stuff like,'k.ummu dah ade muscle2 yg best after angkat cartons yg berat2'.She'd get annoyed coz she's kinda big herself.And k.yati would say 'anak dare tak elok angkat bende berat2'.I miss all those times.
-Times that we couldnt decide where to go for lunch.Times where I'd laugh at Nabilla whenever she eats rice coz she seldom eat rice.She's so cute.
-Yuzni..We're so different and yet we were really close.Both of us would run around MPH looking for books.And usually akan menyampah if the book tinggal just one more copy coz we'd never find it.
-I miss Yuzni la.Wonder how she's doing..tee hee..
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Valedictorian
Today was somewhat a tiring,enjoyable and emotional day to me.
Went to the KLCC Convention Centre for Taylor's Graduation,I was working.
Feh.
Tiring coz I had to stand for quite a few hours in heels,
Enjoyable coz I was with my frens in college like Akila,Baby,Aizat,Inghaw,Jooheng,Wilson,Mingyi,Calvin.
Emotional coz it was graduation.
Tho it was not mine,but it was so touching.
Most of them looked good in the graduation gown.
And oh the lecturer had to wear one too and mind
you,
Mr Daniel looked hot!
Tee hee..
I wonder if I'll graduate?
Maybe..
And if I do,
I'll graduate on top of the class
and be a valedictorian
just like Mr.Daniel.
That's my promise.
Term test's next week
and Im studying really hard
so that I'd get kick-ass results.
And prove to my family that Im not a
total whack job.
And oh,
Baby's a mad mad driver.
Ever madder than Akila!
Is there such a word?
Madder?
tee hee..
Went to the KLCC Convention Centre for Taylor's Graduation,I was working.
Feh.
Tiring coz I had to stand for quite a few hours in heels,
Enjoyable coz I was with my frens in college like Akila,Baby,Aizat,Inghaw,Jooheng,Wilson,Mingyi,Calvin.
Emotional coz it was graduation.
Tho it was not mine,but it was so touching.
Most of them looked good in the graduation gown.
And oh the lecturer had to wear one too and mind
you,
Mr Daniel looked hot!
Tee hee..
I wonder if I'll graduate?
Maybe..
And if I do,
I'll graduate on top of the class
and be a valedictorian
just like Mr.Daniel.
That's my promise.
Term test's next week
and Im studying really hard
so that I'd get kick-ass results.
And prove to my family that Im not a
total whack job.
And oh,
Baby's a mad mad driver.
Ever madder than Akila!
Is there such a word?
Madder?
tee hee..
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
somewhat a bad day..
My day started off awefully.
Oh how I hate today.
First the Lay Bee thingie
and then the assessment,
but thank god,
I nailed it,somehow.
Not exactly nailed it,nailed it but,
I remembered the sequence
and I didnt last week.
So,HOOREEEYY!!
I fast today
and I didnt have rice or anything heavy
when I break fast.
Face the fact la,
when you're fasting,
you dont really want to eat,
you just want to drink.
Especially now,
coz its really hot.Humid.
Annoying.
So,I had lots of water and
was full because of water.
Later on,
I was forced to eat rice by mom.
Sucked really.
She said that if I get sick,
she's the one who's gonna have to look after me.
I was like,'nooo..when I was sick,I had to drive myself to the clinic,alone.'And mind you,i was dizzy.
Had to do everything alone.
And if it were my sister,
I have to be the driver and my mom would tag along
just to make sure she's ok.
How does that make me feel?
And so i ate.
Alot.
Until I barfed.
Are you happy now,mom?
Oh how I hate today.
First the Lay Bee thingie
and then the assessment,
but thank god,
I nailed it,somehow.
Not exactly nailed it,nailed it but,
I remembered the sequence
and I didnt last week.
So,HOOREEEYY!!
I fast today
and I didnt have rice or anything heavy
when I break fast.
Face the fact la,
when you're fasting,
you dont really want to eat,
you just want to drink.
Especially now,
coz its really hot.Humid.
Annoying.
So,I had lots of water and
was full because of water.
Later on,
I was forced to eat rice by mom.
Sucked really.
She said that if I get sick,
she's the one who's gonna have to look after me.
I was like,'nooo..when I was sick,I had to drive myself to the clinic,alone.'And mind you,i was dizzy.
Had to do everything alone.
And if it were my sister,
I have to be the driver and my mom would tag along
just to make sure she's ok.
How does that make me feel?
And so i ate.
Alot.
Until I barfed.
Are you happy now,mom?
Monday, September 12, 2005
Untouchable
I just realize how much I like traditional dancing.
Especially the 'Ulik Mayang'.
Fascinating really.
I wonder if I'll get the chance to actually learn it.
Azani's dad passed away last night.
Al-Fatihah..
Another 2 weeks till my final.
Another 4 days till my dateline for my ICT project,
which I havent started.
Wanted to but there were so many interruptions.
We were in Akila's place.
There were some crew who was working to shoot some
malay drama.
So,at times,we had to lowered our voices.
Which kinda sucked.
Oh well,I am not looking forward to tomorrow.
But I am looking forward to kitchen class tho.
We're going to make steak and if I'm lucky,
I'll get IngHaw to serve me.
Wheeeeee.
Let me ask you something,
if you like someone who happens to be so untouchable,
beyond untouchable actually,
would you still go for it?
I mean,will you take the risk?
I want to but is it appropriate?
Its not like he's taken but he's so untouchable.
Im not going to define 'untouchable'.
Especially the 'Ulik Mayang'.
Fascinating really.
I wonder if I'll get the chance to actually learn it.
Azani's dad passed away last night.
Al-Fatihah..
Another 2 weeks till my final.
Another 4 days till my dateline for my ICT project,
which I havent started.
Wanted to but there were so many interruptions.
We were in Akila's place.
There were some crew who was working to shoot some
malay drama.
So,at times,we had to lowered our voices.
Which kinda sucked.
Oh well,I am not looking forward to tomorrow.
But I am looking forward to kitchen class tho.
We're going to make steak and if I'm lucky,
I'll get IngHaw to serve me.
Wheeeeee.
Let me ask you something,
if you like someone who happens to be so untouchable,
beyond untouchable actually,
would you still go for it?
I mean,will you take the risk?
I want to but is it appropriate?
Its not like he's taken but he's so untouchable.
Im not going to define 'untouchable'.
Friday, September 09, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
gatal+vain= this
I watched gay porn today..
Oh my..
It was...umm..Gross and disgusting really.
I mean,Im straight.
And seeing 2 gorgeous guys 'doing it' together,
is just plain weird and undescribably gross..
But it was fun watching it with Akila and Zara.
ehehhe..
There's nothing much to say really.
My day was normal.
Went to college.
Had lunch with Akila & bf,Zara,Ice and Haslina in PeeJay.
Took loads of piccies too.
Wish I could post some here but zara couldnt send it yet.
Went dinner in college.
Stuart's dinner to be exact.
Charlene was there too.
Im gonna miss her.
Dinner was ok.
Jason was our server.
eheh..
OHHH...
I saw Mr.Daniel..
eheheh..
He's hot.
Lets just hope he's not gay.
Had a weird conversation with zara when I was on my way to send her back.
The conversation reminded me of Joshua.
I know I shouldnt be thinking about him anymore,
but I couldnt help it.
He was very much apart of me.
I was really comfortable with him.
Comfortable talking to him.
Its going to be the hardest task looking for another guy.
No one can ever replace him.
But I'll take my chances.
I am still confused.
Im wondering and I still cant get the answers to my questions.
Im looking forward to friday.
I get to attend mr daniel's class..
eehhe..
I know I gatal.
I know Im vain.
Ive been told.
Nitey..
Oh my..
It was...umm..Gross and disgusting really.
I mean,Im straight.
And seeing 2 gorgeous guys 'doing it' together,
is just plain weird and undescribably gross..
But it was fun watching it with Akila and Zara.
ehehhe..
There's nothing much to say really.
My day was normal.
Went to college.
Had lunch with Akila & bf,Zara,Ice and Haslina in PeeJay.
Took loads of piccies too.
Wish I could post some here but zara couldnt send it yet.
Went dinner in college.
Stuart's dinner to be exact.
Charlene was there too.
Im gonna miss her.
Dinner was ok.
Jason was our server.
eheh..
OHHH...
I saw Mr.Daniel..
eheheh..
He's hot.
Lets just hope he's not gay.
Had a weird conversation with zara when I was on my way to send her back.
The conversation reminded me of Joshua.
I know I shouldnt be thinking about him anymore,
but I couldnt help it.
He was very much apart of me.
I was really comfortable with him.
Comfortable talking to him.
Its going to be the hardest task looking for another guy.
No one can ever replace him.
But I'll take my chances.
I am still confused.
Im wondering and I still cant get the answers to my questions.
Im looking forward to friday.
I get to attend mr daniel's class..
eehhe..
I know I gatal.
I know Im vain.
Ive been told.
Nitey..
my oh my..
I just realize how pink my blog really is.
did i tell you that i have crush on my f&b lecturer?
mr daniel.eheh..kegatalan..
oh my oh my..
anyways.
ive been busy these few days.
not forgetting tired.
college is just as tiring as working.
i had my rooms division final assessment yesterday.
i think i did good.
i hope i'd score.
whenever my mom starts talking bout my dad,
she cant seem to stop.
and i dont know what i should think or say.
i really dont.
matter of fact,i really dont wanna have that conversation with her.
its just weird.
i mean,as much as i dislike my dad,
he's still my dad.
there's nothing i can do.
but,if i dont participate in the conversation,
she might think im inconsiderate and that i dont care.
i do,its just not easy for me i guess.
and as for joshua,
to hell with him.
i mean it.
im just wasting my time.
he doesnt care.
know what josh?
GOODBYE.
there.
ive said it.
my closure.
college?
ups and downs as always.
but overall,having fun.
but deep inside,
still alone and lonely.
i am happy but something's missing.
a missing piece to my puzzle of life.
sometimes i get so depressed and dont know what to do.
and the most stupidest thing seems to be the only way out.
you really think i like cutting myself?
i really dont.
but sometimes,thats the only thing to do.
i need to let go.
i need to bleed.
i just need to do it.
yoke told me that i need to start flirting.
i really dont know how and not sure if i want to.
i just want to be me.
and i hope people will like me for who i really am inside.
i donno.
im confused.
i dont know what i want.
can i share something?
most guys claims that they want someone special and unique,
and yet most of them go for the carbon-copy girls
and that just have to look in the magazine to actually know
what to wear.
isnt that just lame?
maybe how you look like really matters no matter what people say.
you have to be pretty and shit to grab people's attention.
and if thats the case,
poor me.
never mind me,
im just curious and confused.
nitey.
did i tell you that i have crush on my f&b lecturer?
mr daniel.eheh..kegatalan..
oh my oh my..
anyways.
ive been busy these few days.
not forgetting tired.
college is just as tiring as working.
i had my rooms division final assessment yesterday.
i think i did good.
i hope i'd score.
whenever my mom starts talking bout my dad,
she cant seem to stop.
and i dont know what i should think or say.
i really dont.
matter of fact,i really dont wanna have that conversation with her.
its just weird.
i mean,as much as i dislike my dad,
he's still my dad.
there's nothing i can do.
but,if i dont participate in the conversation,
she might think im inconsiderate and that i dont care.
i do,its just not easy for me i guess.
and as for joshua,
to hell with him.
i mean it.
im just wasting my time.
he doesnt care.
know what josh?
GOODBYE.
there.
ive said it.
my closure.
college?
ups and downs as always.
but overall,having fun.
but deep inside,
still alone and lonely.
i am happy but something's missing.
a missing piece to my puzzle of life.
sometimes i get so depressed and dont know what to do.
and the most stupidest thing seems to be the only way out.
you really think i like cutting myself?
i really dont.
but sometimes,thats the only thing to do.
i need to let go.
i need to bleed.
i just need to do it.
yoke told me that i need to start flirting.
i really dont know how and not sure if i want to.
i just want to be me.
and i hope people will like me for who i really am inside.
i donno.
im confused.
i dont know what i want.
can i share something?
most guys claims that they want someone special and unique,
and yet most of them go for the carbon-copy girls
and that just have to look in the magazine to actually know
what to wear.
isnt that just lame?
maybe how you look like really matters no matter what people say.
you have to be pretty and shit to grab people's attention.
and if thats the case,
poor me.
never mind me,
im just curious and confused.
nitey.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
rotten drawer.haha.
1. First thing you did this morning:
Woke up.
2. Last thing you ate:
Potato chips for dinner.
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
Gessh..What a harsh thing to say.You can easily offend my phone.
4. What's the thing you look forward to most in the next 6 months:
In the next 6 months?? Are you kidding? I don't plan that far ahead...Hmm..Maybe just passing my exams with flying colors.
5. What's annoying you right now?
Nothing, actually. Quick, mark it on the calendar! This is a rare occasion, indeed.
6. What's the last movie you watched?
Spartacus on HBO.
7. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
Feh. Very few work out.
8. What's worse? To love someone who doesn't love you, or to pretend to love someone you don't love?
Oh, bloody hell..... If I had to pretend to love someone I didn't love and it included having to touch them and stuff... *shudder* ... Ugh. I don't think I could do it. I'd rather love someone who doesn't love me (doesn't mean I'm with them, now does it?)
9. Is there someone you miss so much it makes you sad?
Yeah.Its kinda sad coz Im here waiting for him almost everynight and he's out there,somewhere,forgotten all about me.Makes me feel so sad and pathetic of coz.
10. What inspires you?
Many things.
11. If you could put together a concert of 4 bands, who would you choose?
Hmmm. How about Incubus,Silverchair,Coldplay and Nirvana?
12. Lyric that sums up your love life?
-
13. What's the one thing you wish you could do better?
Have a better view of myself. Really, I don't think I'm all that great.
14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be?
The Phillipines.Ok,Im pathetic.
15. What's your most vivid memory from 6th grade?
I was on my way up to my class.I was running for some reason.Just when I thought I was safe,I fell.And the whole class laughed.I was left to bleed.*LOL*Gedik gile.
16. Latest addiction?
Music, but that's always been an addiction.
17. Have you ever had the slight urge to kill someone?
Too many times to mention...
18. How many people would you say you were interested in at once?
Ohh..There's alot of people that I have interest in.But whether they know me or actually noticed me,is a whole different story.
19. Who are you in love with?
He,who stole my heart and never give it back.He placed my heart in a rotten drawer and forgot all about it.
20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily?
Pfftt. Not likely.
21. Are you self confident?
I try.
22. What would you change about yourself?
I'd be a couple inches taller.
23. What book are you reading right now?
Some fantasy book I borrowed from Ing Haw.Im half way thru.
24. How many people do you know with the same name as you?
Me alone.
25. What was the last thing you spilled?
Ice cream.Vanilla ice cream.Damn you..
Woke up.
2. Last thing you ate:
Potato chips for dinner.
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
Gessh..What a harsh thing to say.You can easily offend my phone.
4. What's the thing you look forward to most in the next 6 months:
In the next 6 months?? Are you kidding? I don't plan that far ahead...Hmm..Maybe just passing my exams with flying colors.
5. What's annoying you right now?
Nothing, actually. Quick, mark it on the calendar! This is a rare occasion, indeed.
6. What's the last movie you watched?
Spartacus on HBO.
7. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
Feh. Very few work out.
8. What's worse? To love someone who doesn't love you, or to pretend to love someone you don't love?
Oh, bloody hell..... If I had to pretend to love someone I didn't love and it included having to touch them and stuff... *shudder* ... Ugh. I don't think I could do it. I'd rather love someone who doesn't love me (doesn't mean I'm with them, now does it?)
9. Is there someone you miss so much it makes you sad?
Yeah.Its kinda sad coz Im here waiting for him almost everynight and he's out there,somewhere,forgotten all about me.Makes me feel so sad and pathetic of coz.
10. What inspires you?
Many things.
11. If you could put together a concert of 4 bands, who would you choose?
Hmmm. How about Incubus,Silverchair,Coldplay and Nirvana?
12. Lyric that sums up your love life?
-
13. What's the one thing you wish you could do better?
Have a better view of myself. Really, I don't think I'm all that great.
14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be?
The Phillipines.Ok,Im pathetic.
15. What's your most vivid memory from 6th grade?
I was on my way up to my class.I was running for some reason.Just when I thought I was safe,I fell.And the whole class laughed.I was left to bleed.*LOL*Gedik gile.
16. Latest addiction?
Music, but that's always been an addiction.
17. Have you ever had the slight urge to kill someone?
Too many times to mention...
18. How many people would you say you were interested in at once?
Ohh..There's alot of people that I have interest in.But whether they know me or actually noticed me,is a whole different story.
19. Who are you in love with?
He,who stole my heart and never give it back.He placed my heart in a rotten drawer and forgot all about it.
20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily?
Pfftt. Not likely.
21. Are you self confident?
I try.
22. What would you change about yourself?
I'd be a couple inches taller.
23. What book are you reading right now?
Some fantasy book I borrowed from Ing Haw.Im half way thru.
24. How many people do you know with the same name as you?
Me alone.
25. What was the last thing you spilled?
Ice cream.Vanilla ice cream.Damn you..
Bangs.
Hil said that people who reply to surveys are attention seekers.
I strongly disagree.
I do surveys and its safe to say that,my intentions are not to seek attention.
I dont really care if people actually read it.
If you come across it,thats fine.
I do them,just for the sake of doing them.
And oh,the famous reason of all,
as a result of ultimate boredom.
Update..
I have bangs!It has been awhile.And Im loving it.
I have surveys to post actually.Have fun reading!.
Name: Delaila.
Birthday: Dec 23rd 1986.
Birthplace: Kuala Terengganu,Malaysia.
Current Location: Subang la.
Eye Color: Dark brown.
Hair Color: Black with red streaks.
Height: 5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
Your Heritage: Im asian.
The Shoes You Wore Today: My 'ballet' shoes.
Your Weakness: Gesshh..I really dont know.
Your Fears: My current fear would be,failing my exams.I need to start studying.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni with extra cheese.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To score in my exams and also in my practical classes.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol,oh,ok.
Thoughts First Waking Up: 'What time is it?' I think.
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes.
Your Bedtime: Gessh.Its not fixed.
Your Most Missed Memory: Spending time with my one and my only.Has been a while.I miss him.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke.Vanilla coke's much much better.
MacDonalds or Burger King: Fast foods arent good.But McD if I have a to choose.Its addictive.
Single or Group Dates: I've never been on a date.So I wouldnt know.But single dates sounds more interesting innit?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Is there any difference?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Gessh..This is hard..Chocolate?
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither.
Do you Smoke: I dont waste my time or money.So,thats a no.
Do you Swear: Only when Im pissed.
Do you Sing: On a daily basis.
Do you Shower Daily: Urgh.Disgusting question.Of course.Dont we all?
Have you Been in Love: Yes,still am too.
Do you want to go to College: I am in college.
Do you want to get Married: I wanted to but not anymore.
Do you belive in yourself: I try to.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Urgh..No?
Do you think you are Attractive: I dont think,I know Im not attractive.I dont care really.Im fine the way that I am.
Are you a Health Freak: Geshh..Im soo far beyond being a health freak.
Do you get along with your Parents: No,not really.But I try to.
Do you like Thunderstorms: Sure.Why not?
Do you play an Instrument: Yes.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: I dont waste my time or money.That's a no people!
In the past month have you Smoked: Refer to the above.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: This too.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: I've never been on a date.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: I really dont think I can eat that much.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Urgh,I dont like sushi.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Hmm..Let me think..I dont think so.
In the past month have you been Dumped: This is hilarious.I've never been on a date,so that should tell you something right?
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Gessh..Interesting but no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Hmm..I dont think so.
Ever been Drunk: Again,allow me to clearly state that I dont drink or smoke and I dont intend to waste my time and money buying all this junk.Thank you.
Ever been called a Tease: Hmm..I really couldnt recall.
Ever been Beaten up: Somewhat..
Ever Shoplifted: Years ago..
How do you want to Die: In my sleep.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A chef in my own fine dining restaurant.Im on my way there.
What country would you most like to Visit: Mecca or Rome or Amsterdam.The phillipines?
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Dark brown.
Favourite Hair Color: Black or dark brown.
Short or Long Hair: Neat and short.
Height: Doesnt matter,as long as he's taller.
Weight: Average.I dont want him to be too skinny or over weight.
Best Clothing Style: Doesnt matter.As long as I know him inside,thats all that matters.
Number of Drugs I have taken: URGH....
Number of CDs I own: More than 100..
Number of Piercings: one
Number of Tattoos: None.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: There's a few...
I strongly disagree.
I do surveys and its safe to say that,my intentions are not to seek attention.
I dont really care if people actually read it.
If you come across it,thats fine.
I do them,just for the sake of doing them.
And oh,the famous reason of all,
as a result of ultimate boredom.
Update..
I have bangs!It has been awhile.And Im loving it.
I have surveys to post actually.Have fun reading!.
Name: Delaila.
Birthday: Dec 23rd 1986.
Birthplace: Kuala Terengganu,Malaysia.
Current Location: Subang la.
Eye Color: Dark brown.
Hair Color: Black with red streaks.
Height: 5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
Your Heritage: Im asian.
The Shoes You Wore Today: My 'ballet' shoes.
Your Weakness: Gesshh..I really dont know.
Your Fears: My current fear would be,failing my exams.I need to start studying.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni with extra cheese.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To score in my exams and also in my practical classes.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol,oh,ok.
Thoughts First Waking Up: 'What time is it?' I think.
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes.
Your Bedtime: Gessh.Its not fixed.
Your Most Missed Memory: Spending time with my one and my only.Has been a while.I miss him.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke.Vanilla coke's much much better.
MacDonalds or Burger King: Fast foods arent good.But McD if I have a to choose.Its addictive.
Single or Group Dates: I've never been on a date.So I wouldnt know.But single dates sounds more interesting innit?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Is there any difference?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Gessh..This is hard..Chocolate?
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither.
Do you Smoke: I dont waste my time or money.So,thats a no.
Do you Swear: Only when Im pissed.
Do you Sing: On a daily basis.
Do you Shower Daily: Urgh.Disgusting question.Of course.Dont we all?
Have you Been in Love: Yes,still am too.
Do you want to go to College: I am in college.
Do you want to get Married: I wanted to but not anymore.
Do you belive in yourself: I try to.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Urgh..No?
Do you think you are Attractive: I dont think,I know Im not attractive.I dont care really.Im fine the way that I am.
Are you a Health Freak: Geshh..Im soo far beyond being a health freak.
Do you get along with your Parents: No,not really.But I try to.
Do you like Thunderstorms: Sure.Why not?
Do you play an Instrument: Yes.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: I dont waste my time or money.That's a no people!
In the past month have you Smoked: Refer to the above.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: This too.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: I've never been on a date.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: I really dont think I can eat that much.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Urgh,I dont like sushi.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Hmm..Let me think..I dont think so.
In the past month have you been Dumped: This is hilarious.I've never been on a date,so that should tell you something right?
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Gessh..Interesting but no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Hmm..I dont think so.
Ever been Drunk: Again,allow me to clearly state that I dont drink or smoke and I dont intend to waste my time and money buying all this junk.Thank you.
Ever been called a Tease: Hmm..I really couldnt recall.
Ever been Beaten up: Somewhat..
Ever Shoplifted: Years ago..
How do you want to Die: In my sleep.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A chef in my own fine dining restaurant.Im on my way there.
What country would you most like to Visit: Mecca or Rome or Amsterdam.The phillipines?
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Dark brown.
Favourite Hair Color: Black or dark brown.
Short or Long Hair: Neat and short.
Height: Doesnt matter,as long as he's taller.
Weight: Average.I dont want him to be too skinny or over weight.
Best Clothing Style: Doesnt matter.As long as I know him inside,thats all that matters.
Number of Drugs I have taken: URGH....
Number of CDs I own: More than 100..
Number of Piercings: one
Number of Tattoos: None.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: There's a few...
Friday, September 02, 2005
Bla bla bla.
Sleep with or without clothes on? I find it rather disturbing sleeping without clothes.
Prefer black or blue pens? My handwriting looks much much better in blue pens.
Dress up on Halloween? Hey,you dont have to wait till halloween to dress up.I dont celebrate halloween tho..
Like to travel? I like to travel to other places but I dislike travelling by car.
Like someone? Oh,sure.
Do they know? The first guy knows and the 2nd one,hmm..Probably not.
Sleep on your side? Urgh.I really have no blardy idea but I think so.
Think your attractive? I'd like to think Im attractive but Im not.Too bad.
Want to marry? Used to.But the idea of marriage does not appeal to me.At least not anymore.
Who? Refer to the above answer.
Alaska or Hawaii?: Most probably Hawaii.
Are you a good student?: I want to be one,I sure hope Im one.I shall try harder.
Are you currently in a relationship? No.
Are you involved in sports: Not anymore.
Birthplace? T'ganu.
Christmas or Halloween? Urgh.I dont celebrate both but if I have to choose,I'd pick Halloween.
Color or black-and-white photo? It depends actually.But black and white agak cantik.
Do long distance relationships work? If you have faith and patience,yes.Anything can work if you have those two.
Do you believe in astrology?: I want to but face it,its crap.
Do you believe in God? yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Urgh.You just have to ask me that.No,I dont.
Do you consider yourself the life of the party? Definately not.Saya ayu ok.
Do you drink?: Alcohol,no.
Do you have a car? I love this question! Yes,yes I do!
Do you have a job? I used to have one 2 1/2 months ago but I quit and started studying.Im enjoying life.Well,up to some point.
Do you make fun of people? Im sarcastic.
Do you think dreams eventually come true? If you work hard and you believe in yourself and in what you do,yes.But sadly,it doesnt happen to me.
Fave thing to do? Ponder back to the past.
Fave. breakfast food? I dont take breakfast.But I should start la.
Fave. Candy? That sour-ish candy.God knows what that candy's called.
Fave. Vacation spot? Anywhere as long as Im with my one and my only.
Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex: eyebrows,eyes and smile.And oh,figure.
Favorite cartoon? Addams Family's cool.
Go to the movies or rent? If I have to choose,I'd pick go to the movies.
Have you ever moved? Yeap.
Have you ever stolen anything (from a store)? Oh yeah.I got busted once too.Was all in the past.
How's the weather right now? It'd be nice if its raining.
Last person you talked to on the phone? Denise aka Yeng Yoke.
Last time you showered? Has been awhile..ahhah..GOTCHA! this evening la.mane boleh tak mandi nih.panas seyh.
Loud or soft music?: It depends really.I'd prefer soft music if I tgh emo.If I tgh emo,I mesti nak nangis so if I listen to loud stuff,I couldnt cry.I need to let it all out bile I emo,so I have to listen to soft music.Tiende?
McDonalds or Burger King? Mcdonalds anytime people.
More romantic; baths or shower? I wouldnt know.
Night or day? night.
Number of Pillows? I need 3.No more,no less.
Piano or guitar? Both are special.
Read or write? Both.
Single or taken? Miserably single.eheh.
Snow or water? Water kot.
What are you doing tomorrow? Tomorrow's saturday and I have to go to college.Replacement class.Im so damn tired.
What clothes are you wearing? INCUBUS shirt and red shorts.
What do you drink? Plain water or kickapoo.
What makes you vomit? Long hours of travelling.
What's on your computer screen? umm.this?
What's right next to you? My 'bed'.
What's your bedtime? Grr..Its not fixed.
What's your best physical feature? My eyes kot.Or maybe my shortness.eheh.
What's your name backwards? alialed
When do you get up in the morning? 7.55am.
Who do you talk to the most online? Hilly or zara.balik2 mereka sahaja.
Would you wait to have sex until you are married? I would.
Prefer black or blue pens? My handwriting looks much much better in blue pens.
Dress up on Halloween? Hey,you dont have to wait till halloween to dress up.I dont celebrate halloween tho..
Like to travel? I like to travel to other places but I dislike travelling by car.
Like someone? Oh,sure.
Do they know? The first guy knows and the 2nd one,hmm..Probably not.
Sleep on your side? Urgh.I really have no blardy idea but I think so.
Think your attractive? I'd like to think Im attractive but Im not.Too bad.
Want to marry? Used to.But the idea of marriage does not appeal to me.At least not anymore.
Who? Refer to the above answer.
Alaska or Hawaii?: Most probably Hawaii.
Are you a good student?: I want to be one,I sure hope Im one.I shall try harder.
Are you currently in a relationship? No.
Are you involved in sports: Not anymore.
Birthplace? T'ganu.
Christmas or Halloween? Urgh.I dont celebrate both but if I have to choose,I'd pick Halloween.
Color or black-and-white photo? It depends actually.But black and white agak cantik.
Do long distance relationships work? If you have faith and patience,yes.Anything can work if you have those two.
Do you believe in astrology?: I want to but face it,its crap.
Do you believe in God? yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Urgh.You just have to ask me that.No,I dont.
Do you consider yourself the life of the party? Definately not.Saya ayu ok.
Do you drink?: Alcohol,no.
Do you have a car? I love this question! Yes,yes I do!
Do you have a job? I used to have one 2 1/2 months ago but I quit and started studying.Im enjoying life.Well,up to some point.
Do you make fun of people? Im sarcastic.
Do you think dreams eventually come true? If you work hard and you believe in yourself and in what you do,yes.But sadly,it doesnt happen to me.
Fave thing to do? Ponder back to the past.
Fave. breakfast food? I dont take breakfast.But I should start la.
Fave. Candy? That sour-ish candy.God knows what that candy's called.
Fave. Vacation spot? Anywhere as long as Im with my one and my only.
Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex: eyebrows,eyes and smile.And oh,figure.
Favorite cartoon? Addams Family's cool.
Go to the movies or rent? If I have to choose,I'd pick go to the movies.
Have you ever moved? Yeap.
Have you ever stolen anything (from a store)? Oh yeah.I got busted once too.Was all in the past.
How's the weather right now? It'd be nice if its raining.
Last person you talked to on the phone? Denise aka Yeng Yoke.
Last time you showered? Has been awhile..ahhah..GOTCHA! this evening la.mane boleh tak mandi nih.panas seyh.
Loud or soft music?: It depends really.I'd prefer soft music if I tgh emo.If I tgh emo,I mesti nak nangis so if I listen to loud stuff,I couldnt cry.I need to let it all out bile I emo,so I have to listen to soft music.Tiende?
McDonalds or Burger King? Mcdonalds anytime people.
More romantic; baths or shower? I wouldnt know.
Night or day? night.
Number of Pillows? I need 3.No more,no less.
Piano or guitar? Both are special.
Read or write? Both.
Single or taken? Miserably single.eheh.
Snow or water? Water kot.
What are you doing tomorrow? Tomorrow's saturday and I have to go to college.Replacement class.Im so damn tired.
What clothes are you wearing? INCUBUS shirt and red shorts.
What do you drink? Plain water or kickapoo.
What makes you vomit? Long hours of travelling.
What's on your computer screen? umm.this?
What's right next to you? My 'bed'.
What's your bedtime? Grr..Its not fixed.
What's your best physical feature? My eyes kot.Or maybe my shortness.eheh.
What's your name backwards? alialed
When do you get up in the morning? 7.55am.
Who do you talk to the most online? Hilly or zara.balik2 mereka sahaja.
Would you wait to have sex until you are married? I would.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
scrap it.
UNTITLED
The night falls with a silent sigh,
Cold and alone are we,
The salvation for which you lust,
Flares once,
Then dies,
Devoured by the abyss,
All hope must surely perish,
Your heart desires no more,
How could you abandon me?
Lost souls surround us,
Crying,
We have lost our light.
TO BE AS SHE
It is the night of sorrow,
A song of death,
Wolves vent their loneliness,
The beautiful one rises,
Mist shrouds her pale form,
A lurking desire,
Her midnight hair cascades over pale
and tragic shoulders,
And her full crimson lips part slighty,
To taste the life steaming from the pale
flesh beneath her,
Now a night of vitality,
I smile vaguely.
So,ok.scrap all that.I dont know what Im doing.
The night falls with a silent sigh,
Cold and alone are we,
The salvation for which you lust,
Flares once,
Then dies,
Devoured by the abyss,
All hope must surely perish,
Your heart desires no more,
How could you abandon me?
Lost souls surround us,
Crying,
We have lost our light.
TO BE AS SHE
It is the night of sorrow,
A song of death,
Wolves vent their loneliness,
The beautiful one rises,
Mist shrouds her pale form,
A lurking desire,
Her midnight hair cascades over pale
and tragic shoulders,
And her full crimson lips part slighty,
To taste the life steaming from the pale
flesh beneath her,
Now a night of vitality,
I smile vaguely.
So,ok.scrap all that.I dont know what Im doing.
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