I honestly do not see the significant of mathematics equation in life.
Its not making my life any easier.
Making it more complicated.Like I have nothing better to do than math.
I can do assignments you know.
I can study oenology and make Mr Hotness proud.
Damn you Newton.

2 more assignments to pass up. And it has been hellish.
Lack of sleep. Lack of rest. Lack of everything
Im all drained.
And people said college was easy.
Think again.
It is very demanding.
Not only mentally but also physically since we have practical classes.
But I consider myself lucky for studying in Taylor's and be with world's best Chef.
Im learning alot.I hope he knows that Im trying tho Im not the best.

Talk about practical classes, Im the next Restaurant Manager.
Im nervous.Hope I'd do well.

Final's just around the corner.
And I cant seem to understand math.
I can abit better now with Alvin's help.
He's been a great fren.He's like my younger brother.

I have been busy but I cant seem to forget Joshua.
I really2 cant.
Everything here reminds me of him.
It has been almost 11 months.
15 dec is just around the corner.
I think I'll be at the corner,crying when that day comes.

Im in love with Mr Hotness,the untouchable.
He's really something with an X-factor.
But he's really untouchable.
Haih.
Things dont always go my way.
But still,I really2 like the guy.
It'd be cool if we could be frens.
haih..
Think thats gonna happen?
Lets just wait and see..

I have a huge ugly zit!

truly truly miss Joshua. :(

Good old times.Fudge,rindu la wak.

Im in love with the untouchable.

My love is vengeance.

Boohoo..

I find Greek Mythology and Ancient Rome History fascinating.
Doesnt make me a freak right?Who cares?
Their line of clothing was magnificent.
Their determination, courage and loyalty is really admirable.

Had wine tasting class yesterday.
I didnt drink of course but most of my classmates did.
And some came to the extend of getting drunk.
The rest of them were tipsy I guess.
Caryne was drunk.No arguing about that.
She couldnt even walk straight.
Mr Daniel too was tipsy.His eyes were red.
Baby had my drinks.
And she wasnt even tipsy.
Went to pyramid with Ice and Zara after class,
we had tonns of fun.
Girls just wanna have fun and we did.

My name is: Delaila.
I may seem: stuck up, bitchy, etc. etc.
But I'm really: a nice person. Until you piss me off. Or if I don't like you, then maybe I'm a bit mean.
People who know me think I'm: nice. Possibly cool. Well, I'd hope they at least think I'm nice.
If you knew me you'd probably: know some of the things that happened in the past to make me the screwed-up basketcase I am now.
Sometimes I feel: like packing all my stuff and moving to some random area.
My days are pretty: much all the same.
In the morning I: have boring classes.Maybe an exception for Tuesdays.Practical classes can be such a bitch,but I enjoy it.
In school I: am serious.
I like to sleep: a lot.
If I could be doing anything right now I would: be watching Harry Potter.Tough luck,no tickets.
Money is: good. Espeically since it'll be helping me get a hearse at some point in the future (which could be the near future).
One thing I wish I had is: more money.
One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: The low self-esteem of mine.
All you need is: love. I dunno. That just made me think of that song by The Beatles.
All I need is: a hearse.
If I had one wish it would be: that I'd finally find a decent level of happiness in life. It's not working out so well at the moment.
When I look in the mirror I see: a reflection that doesn't match how I see myself. I still see myself as being the slightly overweight (for my height and build, mind you) girl that people didn't talk to.
Love is: suicide. Maybe like playing Russian Roulette.
My body is: seriously fucked up on the inside.
If an angel flew into my window at night I would: wonder what the hell is going on here.
If a demon crashed into my window I would: ask why they didn't just knock at the front door. No need to be ruining the window.
If I could see one person right now it would be: ....... ehh, I don't really know. Ask some other time.
Something I want but I don't really need is: money to order all the clothes I want to order.
Something I need but I don't really want is: A new phone.
I live for: taking over the world. And owning a hearse.
I dare you all to: fill this dumb thing out.
I am afraid of: growing old alone and lonely.And also,failing my tests.Grades are everything to me.
It makes me angry when: people go thru my stuff and ask me questions as if I did something wrong.People rushing me.
I dream about: things that I cannot have in reality.
I daydream about: spending my time with the love of my life.whoever that is.
Random thought of the moment: Don't ever tell your current car that you're getting another vechicle. It will find ways to trash you out.

Had pastry class earlier.
Made peach tart.
Was amazingly good.
Later on,
went to Zara's place to make wine.
It was umm..
interesting.
Really.
But I dont think anyone would want to drink wines after
making one.
It's not as pleasant as the name.
Trust me.
We peeled the grapes to make white wine and removed the seeds of course.
The peeling was ok.
It was the crushing that was even more fun-ner.
Disgusting la.
Ice had a sip of the red wine that we bought for Numchha.
I really cannot see why people would wanna drink something that doesnt smell good?
Gesshhh..

Ba Boom..

I have this stupid song stuck in my head.
It is indeed stupid because the lyrics goes,
'Cantik,menarik,tertarik,kau memang da bomb.'
I mean who would write shits like that?

Da Bomb.Hmph.

Happy.

Wanna know whats making me happy?
Being gatal.
Coming up with a list of guys that I have my eyes on.
Joshua used to make me happy.
He used to make me cry too.

Today,
Zara dared me and Akila to ngorat Affendi.
She wants to see who'll win coz Affendi's in both our list.
Lets just wait and see how that goes.

Akila made up some horrific fantasy bout Mr.Daniel.
She did that just to irritate me of course.
Knowing that I have a mega huge crush on him.
It gave me the creeps.
Saw Chef Patrick in a formal wear the other day.
I was melting honest!
He's just too hot.
Mr Daniel's forever in formal.
He's still hot nonetheless.
Who else is in my list?
Keith!He's the defination of hot!
Inghaw's always in my list.
Maybe not on top of my list,
but in my list all the same.
That mysterious tourism dude is most definately in my list.
He's so gorgeous.

It's true

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Kegatalan

I have alot of things to say actually.
I think Ive forgotten half of it already.

Yesterday,
went to Aza's place.
2 words: GREAT FOOD!
Mashed was great.
I said I missed highschool right?
I think I take that back.
And oh,
I saw a very horrific vid of Seng Chee taken by Min Hsern.
Oh damn..Horrific alrite!
Earlier on,
was pissed at Amrita of course.
She promised that she'd be my guest but when I called her around 1,
she was still at home.
Reuben was waiting.
I had to beg Budi to come.
I had to sweet talk Budi into becoming my guest.
How low was that?
I was desperate.
I did for the marks.
But thanks to Amrita,
I was so menggalabah that I started to forget everything.
I didnt even remember how to hold the service gear!
Oh well.

Today,
I laughed so hard in Oenology class.
It was blardy amusing.
We had this quiz in the class.
Group 3 vs Group 4.
We had to imitate something or someone and our group members had to guest what was it.
They did the more hilarious posts,
that not only us,students laughed,
Mr Daniel too, was trying real hard not to burst out laughing.
But he did esp when Alvin did his 'cute' face.
It was cute alrite!
Mr Daniel was really hot!Well,everyday also hot la that guy.

Oh,I was Chef Patrick today too!
He was wearing a dark blue shirt with a tie and BLAZER.
Oh hotness!
He's so fine..I know Ice agrees.
He's so huggable esp when he's wearing chef uniform.
Oh may I add,
any guy wit chef uniforms are hot.
Chef Tan passed for cute.
Maybe not Chef Bala.
Oh daym..He's so not hot.

I want an eye-candy.
Not just eye-candy that I can just stare.

Highschool

I browsed thru old high school mag last night and I faced reality.
Reality being that I actually missed Highschool.
I missed the people.The ones that I hated or liked.
I wouldnt want it any other way or with any other people.
If I had the chance to turn back time and re-live those treassured moments,I'd pass.
Coz it would not be the same.
I have to admit that I was a nobody in Highschool, but it didnt bothered me at all.
Coz if I were a somebody,everything would be different.
I wouldnt be missing highschool right now.
I'd have to say that I wished I was frenlier then,
but there's nothing I can do now.
So,just be grateful Dee!

Jolly Holiday!

Im so not in the festive mood,that it's amazing.
I realize that it only takes one person to screw up your mood.
And it also takes one person to put a smile on your face.

Would it be selfish of me if I said I want you-know-who to hurt just as much as Im hurting and still remain happy?Coz I want him to be happy and I want him to hurt as well.Am I being selfish?

EID.

People say that you'll have less fun during Eid when you're older.I agree.
This year's Eid was nothing compared to last year's.
I didnt want to go back to T'ganu,but Im glad I did.
I wouldnt want it any other way.