Ive been home for almost 5 days now. I couldve updated my blog earlier but I couldnt find the perfect words to describe the feeling Im feeling right now. Not that Ive found the perfect words but I better jot it down before I forget.

Im still in denial. I cant believe Im back in Subang. Subang just dont feel like home anymore to me. I feel as if I left home and now Im in a foreign place. Subang is like a foreign place to me. I dont belong here. When I was in Club Med, I believed I was alot of things. In Subang, I believe I am nothing. I feel nothing. I feel depressed here. Home. Family condition. I cant take it.

I can be myself in CM and no one would question me. I can be myself at home too but everyone wants to change me. Wants me to be someone that Im not. Wants me to be someone they want me to be. And I have no choice but to let them change me. Coz if I were the real me, they would never accept me.

In CM, I have a family. They're all my family. Abg Najeb, Dmo, M.I.K.E, Azza, K.Ogy etc etc. Please know that I heart you all to BITS!

I miss everything there is to miss about CM. The gorgeous beach, the goodlooking & frenly GOs, the ever so nice GEs, the monkeys tho they pooped on all my towels, the small room, the atmosphere, the canteen and the sucky food which we all had to eat due to starvation, watching my abang's main bola in the evenings.

I started my training with restaurant. The restaurant's called The Mutiara. Buffet. So my work was real easy but it was really tiring. I mean really. All we had to do was clear plates, serve wine and mise en place. We had to wear the most ridiculous uninform. I'd post the picture but it'll take a long time and I dont have that much patience. We had to stand in a line and greet guests everytime the buffet started which I think is kinda cute and different. The restaurant manager, Yuli who's from Indonesia and a graduate from Taylors. She's a doll. Really. There's nothing wrong with her. I respect her. She's very caring. Like a sister. Training in F&B felt like forever but it was worth it. Coz come to think of it, I enjoyed it.

After F&B, it was Reception. I thought I'd be wearing something nice for a change. A kebaya. It was nice but they had no small size so I had to settle for M which was huge. The kain was so uncomfortable. You just had to lift your kain up in order to walk properly. Didnt learn that much coz I didnt get to do the check ins & check outs. You know. I was just the trainee. And I had to do silly stuff like serve tea and water to arrivals. Reception was relaxing but tiring all at the same time.

I had the most fun in Kitchen. Surrounded by fun and happy people. It was almost impossible not to be happy. I was placed in the Hot Buffet section. I worked under Abang Aziz. He's the MAN! He cooked like 6 dishes all in a go. He made it look like it was effortless. He was that good. I actually believed Mr Daniel when he said all you'd be doing when you're in training is cut veges and all. I did cut veges but I was given the chance to cook as well. Abang Aziz trusted me. I hope I didnt ruin his trust. Like I said, it was buffet. So I had to cook in front of the guests. It was all good. There was this one time I wanted to impress Magnum (GO). He's got the nicest pair of eyes. And he's so frenly. *cair*
I was making seafood stew. He stood before me, waiting for me to cook. I wanted to impress him by showing off my skills. All of a sudden, Magnum said, " Sayang, your hand is on fire." It was on fire. I was so malu coz it was so tak ayu. Chris & Rick, both hotties from Australia was there. Both saw everything. Boy was I embarrassed. It was all good.

Miss those time where I'd argue with Moka the asst executive chef. He's from mauritius. Sumbat la that mamat. He kept saying shit like , "nobody likes me coz Im hitam." I was like, "No, nobody likes you coz you're sumbat and menggelabah." Then he'd curse me in his language. Like I care.
He knew I was going into Housekeeping after kitchen and he'd say annoying shits like,"when you go hsekeeping, come and clean my room,no."
I was like, HELL NO! I'd mess it up.

And to my luck, on my first day of hsekeeping, my first room, of all the rooms in club med, I had to clean his first. Daulat la kot.
Housekeeping was alrite. Not as bad as I thought it'd be. I was unlucky coz I had to do it alone. First 3 days with the kakaks. Then I was doing it alone. Sometimes Mike the asst hsekeeper would help. He was crazy coz he gave me 10 DEPARTURES! Alone. Lucky he had this thing called SYMPATHY, he came and helped me.
Alot of funny moments in hsekeeping. One time I forgot to put towels in all the rooms ive cleaned. Mike & I had to run all the way back to N bloc from J bloc. Crazy..Sorry Mike..Lupe la dodol..

Every night I'd go out to the mamak in front of the guard hse to lepak. Sometimes with mike and the girls from taylors. Sometimes just with the girls from taylors. Sometimes with Dmo & Abg Najeb. Sometimes with Azza.
It was all good. Cant believe 3 months is over.
Im so sad knowing that I may not have the chance to see all of them again. And hang with them anymore. That was like a routine that I was so used to doing and now Im having a hard time convincing myself that its all over.

Last tuesday, we had our dinner at the restaurant. More like farewell dinner. It was good. Took pics with Simon Solinas ( F&B Manager), Chef Don (Exe. Chef), Chef Ketut ( Pastry Chef) etc. Lepaked at the bar after. Indra bought me a drink. Chef Don did also. Jamey and Mike also. Wuahahha. I had a blaast with Zara, Wee Wee, Venny & Ika.
The next day, the girls, Mike and me went to kemaman for breakfast. More like late breakfast early lunch at Hai Peng. The place was like Uncle Lim's with the same kind of food except they dont sell nasi dagang, nasi lemak ikan tongkol and tapai in Uncle Lim's. Later after brunch, we went back and change and headed to the other side of the beach where Rembulan, the Specialty Restaurant and Lautan, the Fine Dining restaurant was. Raj, Rembulan's manager invited us for lunch. Met him, abg ady (fine dining chef) and abg akasha (specialty chef) there. Chatted and snapped pics. Raafi was there too. Raafi.. Funny funny dude.. I will always remember you. Always. Nutella? Lol.
After lunch, we went to the beautiful beach. I didnt wanna mandi coz i dont know. i just dont mandi laut. but i was dragged by Tavin. Oh how I hated him then. Bleargh.. So yeah, I was soaked.
Oh I forgot that we went to the yacht! It was awesome. People paid big bucks to get into the yacht and we went there for free. We were the luckiest trainess. Honest.
Our last night in CM, we went to the mamak. Wee wee and I planned to get back at Dmo coz he bullied us like ever so often. Revenge time. Closure. We so got our closure coz zara was there. She bit him till he had bruises everywhere.
MC the next day too..lol.
Friday aka last day came. It was so hard to say goodbye. Mike was with me when I was waiting for my parents. That was nice of you M.I.K.E.
Thanks. I'll never forget the past 3 months that Ive spent in CM. It was PRICELESS.