Ive never really understood loneliness. Ive never really given much thought as to what loneliness really meant.
If by having zero frens to talk and hang out with equals to being lonely, then I know exactly what it means now.
I dont want many frens. I just want a handful that I know will be around all the time. Not to say to always be available to me, but to just be available and not disappear.
I used to call this one person a good fren. Close to a bestfren. But she found some other clique better to hang out with. She'd rather spend all her available time with that new clique.
She only called me to ask if I had wanted a cat. She knew well how much I hated cats. 8 years worth of frenship came to an end. And we havent spoken since.
