The One Where I took pics with AAR =)

And so MTV Worldstage was last night. And I cannot emphasize enough how bumped I am still about having to work and not able to watch my favourite bands ( All american rejects & hoobastank ) Uber bumped.

But.............. Its not all bad. I got to see Kasabian, Boys like Girls and All American Rejects in person already. They came and had lunch/dinner in Fridays. I took a picture with All American Rejects!! woohoo. Though kurang clear. I dont care!! I got to see them eat for a full one hour!! Who cares right? Not forgetting Kasabian and Boys like Girls. Hoobastank went to Haagen Daaz and Romas instead. So still bumped there. Regardless, I am happy. Though I could have easily have gone to the concert if it wasnt because of work. I know I am capable of bodek-ing Jeff into giving me one of the tickets. He was bumped too coz he too had to work. Just like me. So dua2 frust. Jeff sold the tickets for RM 350 EACH! He sold 2. RM 700 buta-buta dpt. Haihz.

There's so much to tell. Dont know where to start. Dean quit his job. Starting a new job next month. A better offer. A place where he wont be mistreated. He was always tired when he was working at OldTown. I dont know. I am happy for him whatever it is. Said that he might be going back to Kuching soon-ish. Dont know how soon he's talking about. Probably because he wouldnt be able to celebrate Raya in kch. Thats why he wants to puasa a few days there. It makes sense.

I just heart him too much. Shhh. Dont tell.

I realized that my past didnt come back to haunt me. At least not really. I went hunting for it. And Ive stopped and regretted that I actually went for it. I thought it was something. It didnt happen then, I wanted to know if it could have been something now. No, it was a reminder of why it didnt happen and why it should never happen. So ok. Now thats out in the open, I should move on.

I am mostly very scared actually. I'm so scared to settle down. Not that I dont want to get married to Dean. I do! More than anything. I am scared that I might regret. There are so many things that I want to do that I havent done yet. I am deathly afraid that I might not be able to do it all before I get married. Everyone seems to be asking bila nak kawin. Not funny actually. Coz if I were to get married already, EVERYONE would know. I would tell! I want to know what it feels like to live independently. To have total freedom. To be able to go back late and not worry about people worrying about me. That sort of thing. I feel little left out in that sense.

I dah lama tak update my blog properly. I kinda miss letting all these out. They are very personal to me. Shhheeeshhh.

The All American Rejects and me =)