Hectic week. Food promo was ok. I dont wanna talk about it.


Pastry class's cancelled tomorrow. Half happy. Half sad. Happy coz I'd be free after 11 am. Sad becoz no money cant go out. Means straight back home la. So boring.


For me, 2007 started rather slow. And nothing good happened. Im worried most of the time. Nothing to be excited about.


You know how guys always say that girls are hard to understand? Well, we're not that complicated. You just have to know the rules. Really. I think guys are hard to crack. I will never know whats going thru in their head. Why cant they understand and get our very basic needs? Let me tell you, once you're in a relationship with a girl, these are the very basic rules.

1) Little things matter to us. You know you love her. She loves you. You know that. She gets that. But it wont hurt to tell her now does it? If she's having a bad day, and you tell her that, it'll make her day instantly. Im speaking for myself but I think most girls agree. We want to hear it. Tho we've heard it thousand times before. It'll make us smile and blush. Dont you just feel good when we do that? Dont you love it when we say I love you out of the blue? When you're not expecting it?


2) Some guys tend to forget their anniversaries. To them, its no big deal. Its one hell of a deal to us. Not just anniversaries, birthdays too. There's no excuse to not remember it. For me, its important. Very important. Sometimes, he just forgot. It upsets me. It does. It really does. To me, there's no excuse. Ive got my own life and its not simple leading my life, but I dont forget. Its something I treasure. Its meaningful. It really gets to me if he doesnt remember. But what can I do huh? Guys will be guys.


3) For me, if I miss him or Im thinking of him, I'd tell him. I'd text him saying that im just dropping by to say that im thinking of him. And that I miss him. And I hope he's happy reading it. It'd be nice to get that sometimes. We dont need long mushy & corny messages with no content. A simple ' I LOVE YOU' or ' I MISS YOU' is all it takes. It can make our day. It can make us smile.


4) Calls. It'd be nice if he calls everyday. But he doesnt. So, I have to just be happy with text msges. If you can afford to call, call. It doesnt have to be long.


5) We girls need time alone too. Just like guys.


6) We girls talk. We do. And there's nothing wrong with that. Keep that in your mind. Nothing wrong with talking.


7) We dont like to be ignored. Dont like to feel ignored. If you feel like you've ignored her, apologise and make sure you mean it.


8) We wanna be pampered. We like to be spoilt rotten. Thats our nature.


9) When we send you a text msg, make sure you reply. An 'ok' does not justify it. For me, getting an 'ok' is as good as no reply at all. Say something pls. If we can make the effort to type something long, the least you could do is write more than just an 'ok'. I dont like getting an 'ok' from my bf. But he does it all the time. WHY?


10) I talk alot. I have to admit. But that doesnt mean I have to start a conversation all the time. I have this thing called 'mood'.


11) We like to be touched. Hold us. Hug us. Hold our hands. It'll make us feel safe.



So yeah. Haha. Mcm self help relationship guide shit. Dont care la.
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For me, I hate changes. I havent changed from the very beginning of the relationship. At least I think I havent. The start of the relationship are just amazing. Everything's right. You're just very happy. He calls you all the time everyday. You get texts msges all day long. Conversation over text msgs that lasted for days. It happened to me. Seemed too good to be true. I knew that it wouldnt be that way for long. I was right. Now, we dont talk on the phone everyday. Ok by me. I think. But we texts each other. Just not as much. Im still up for that conversation over text msgs that lasted for days. I am. But he's not. I dont know why. Maybe he thinks we're stable. We are. But it'd be nice.


I know he's tired. He's working. But dozing off when we're on the phone? Thats just mean. Makes me feel so unimportant and boring. I know he didnt think that but he sure did give me that impression. As if what I wanted to say didnt matter. Thats how I felt. No offence.


Dee suka kena pujuk. He should belajar pujuk. I pujuk when I did something wrong. He should too. When Im pissed, dont tell me I need time to cool off. I will cool off eventually. I nak kena pujuk. If he buat salah la. And when I do speak my mind, dont make me feel bad. Coz I will and I dont like it coz I have a soft heart and its super fragile. And when I love someone, I'll love him separuh mati. Like now. Im so scared that I'll lose him. It seems like he doesnt even care. Even if he does care.. He doesnt know how to show it which sucked. ish.


Excuse this post. Dee tgh geram je. I need to let it go.